Joelle, I was wondering where you have been . I am so sorry that you have been feeling this way.

You know what...I totally get what you are saying. But, you know what else...I guess we should start thinking that NT is the perfect place to come to get hugs and understanding and KNOW that sometimes it's us going through it and sometimes it's someone else. And we can definitely be here for one another and pick each other up when we are down.

Honestly, I hesitate to post on here when I am depressed. But I am starting to feel much better from this round of being down. And ALL YOU FRIENDS here are the reason for it. It's hard cause NOONE in my life really understands even though they try and they 'think' they do. And I don't fault them for that. I thank God very often for NT and the friends I have found here.

I really am a person who typically, on a daily basis, picks myself up by the bootstraps and carries on.....but every once in a while, that just doesn't happen. And I am so happy for those who can always do that...but I'm also learning to be acceptant of myself when I can't.

I think we are dealing with a whole lot, though I am always mindful that things could be a lot worse. And people are definitely going through much more horrible times. But we are only human.


So Joelle.... don't stay away! We are all here for you and for each other.

FTU...

You are such a valuable member of our "club" here!! So sorry to read that you are feeling so down.

I've had bouts of severe depression for most of my adult life, and plenty of therapy.
One of the things I have learned about depression is that depression signals a change in the offing...it's a time of transition.
I have felt that it's kind of a different phase of life coming...I have to come to grips with letting go of the past as I have known it, whether it be letting go of former friends, family that I don't have contact with any longer, a job I have had to quit (sounds like a lot of us deal with this at one time or another), many life transitions that call for us to stop and maybe mourn what we are losing as our lives take a new road.
You have had many changes due to MS. You are also on a med that might be exaserbating your depressive symptoms.
I hope you can find help, whether it be here, or at church, or even in therapy.
But know that we are here with you, we understand, and you are NOT alone!!

That makes sense that a new phase of life is coming. I think it's already here and I'm just having trouble transitioning like you said. It is unusual to think of it as mourning, but now that I think about it, it makes perfect sense.

I have found much help here, plus I find reading and studying my Bible is also a comfort. I have a wonderful church, though it is very small. I used to see a wonderful therapist, but unfortunately she moved several states away. I really miss her and just don't have the mental energy to start with a new one. It sounds too exhausting to have to re-hash everything again.

You have been a great help, as have many others. I think I am crawling up out of this funk, it takes a little while...as I didn't get this way overnight. I consider you a blessing today. Thank you.