I was in an out of six psychiatric wards after my drug interaction acquired brain injury. Nobody wanted to hear that the interaction had anything to do with it. It was easier to think that a man, at 40, had suddenly become suicidal due to being a drug abuser, alcoholic or worse, when neither was true.

The symptoms of the interaction were so horrifying is to make me doubt my own sanity. I still wake up with the burning body, tremors, pulsatile tinnitus and other things that make me doubt I can hold on to my sanity every day while keep looking for an answer. T

he semantics couldn't matter less to me. Whether I acquired mental illness from the symptoms breaking me down, like you can acquire pneumonia from a lesser illness not being taken care of, or whether it is just the breaking down of the mind from the terrifying physical effects, matters little to me and I will leave that up to others to debate.

I just want resolutions to my most terrifying symptoms.

I am definitely more aware to protect my head from potential hits or harm now. I watched a baseball game where the player had just come off the injured list after suffering a concussion after the ball hit him in the face and popped off his catcher's mask he wore. First game back, same player attempts to slide into third base, but throw is coming in low. Player covers head, and makes one of the goofiest slides I've ever seen, landing on his knees.

Even the commentators couldn't keep from laughing! Just goes to show you how much you'll protect your head after you've had a concussion.

I'm so sorry if I offended you Mark, please forgive, not intended at all xx

I was actually saying it in a playful manner because I have been in a 'mental hospital' psych ward for suicidal depression in the past, way before this accident and have suffered suicidal thoughts quite a few times over the last 20 years and then since the accident too. so I guess I kind of down play it in a sense as it scares me to death.

Now I'm fighting the depression I've had since a teenager plus concussion...all things cognitive.

I was just talking about myself, it's not about anyone else, I know how terrible it is. xx

Yes I do have this fear as well.

This fear has grown as I've accumulated small head bumps since the injury that cause an increase in symptoms. I've gotten to the point where pretty much in any dream I have I hit my head somehow, and then wake up with temporary pain where I hit it in the dream! Strangely I've only gotten these dreams since starting lexapro...

I've been very scared of hitting my head again, I had one concussion and then hit my head again a month later but I don't think the second impact was a concussion (is it 'easier' to get a concussion when you've had one already? Is your brain more sensitive to them?), however it is since that second impact that I developed all my symptoms.

This means I'm scared of even the smallest bumps, but I'm also horribly clumsy and really careless (obviously I'm only aware of this after I've done something careless) since the second accident which means I think I'm more likely to get hurt too

The second accident was a really minor car crash where someone went into the back of my car so I'm scared of having another accident like that and that sort of accident is unavoidable.
I've found I'm much more anxious in other people's cars. I now brake very early as I'm over cautious and most people don't brake that early so I feel like we're going to hit the car in front when there are others driving. I sit in the passenger seat clutching the seat with my foot pressed down hard in the foot well as if I can somehow brake!

I am sorry for your troubles abbilee. How long back you had the first concussion ?

Totally!
That feeling, combined with hyperactive startle reflex, keeps my family on their toes!!!

ventured out to an outdoor patio restaurant (no recordee or live musici...yay!!,) and apples were falling from the tree in the courtyard! Not safe anywhere

Sorry for the late reply, it was back in December, I had another accident in January though, I think it was that one that really did the damage.

Went out on my bike for the first time this week. I panicked like anything when a bus went past me.
It's illegal but I'm riding on the pavement at the moment as the road is just terrifying me.

Nearly two weeks ago I had a nasty fall. I have a coffee table on castors and for no reason I can explain to you, I stepped onto it on my way to the kitchen. It flew out from underneath me and I landed badly on my hip.
Still have a substantial bruise there.

Thank god I didn't hit my head but the fall really shook me up, I guess because I COULD have hit my head, but also because I don't understand why I stepped onto the table. It is very very low, but I knew it was there, I didn't not see it

I just don't seem to be aware of things around me and that scares me because it seems so easy to have another accident.

I'm constantly banging into things and knocking things over, dropping things.
I was never clumsy before.

I'm also afraid of hitting my head. It doesn't help that my car is a clown car and I have to really duck down. I try to be careful whenever there is something that could possibly hit my head. I am glad I am not the only person who is afraid of hitting their head.