I'm almost at a year since my concussion and my emotions have been effected greatly. The first couple of months I was just very quiet and what not.

Past 3 months or so, I've been very distant and that's not the person I am. I deal with depression on and off and truthfully it sucks. I can be alright one day and the next, I'm sitting in my room thinking I don't want to be here anymore b/c of the headaches.

A couple weeks ago my Dad said (I still live at home only 20) to me, "I miss my son" and I replied back to him, "I miss......myself" and I started to cry and I very rarely every cry. I want to be my old self again.

Yes, depression is a cruel monster. I thankfully don't feel like that's been part of my PCS experience but I have dealt with it in my past. All I can say without talking your digital ears off is hold on. You are not your sickness, there is more to you than PCS.

Hi cody, et al -
While it is true that I don't have the angry & aggressive outbursts, that's not all good. My behavior is always 'good', appropriate and in conscious control. However, I am mindfully aware that:
All my anger and aggression is turned inward.
Anger, aggression turned inward = aggression and violence toward self. Not good. Can't help it.
All that formula adds up = severe painful depression. Not good.

Yes, I say the same thing, Cody.
And I feel very strongly the same, that I want my self back.
It's for me a sort of strength of determination that I actually *can* wrap my mind around.

Otherwise I just cannot force my mind to wrap around a blind-faith-passive-submission-acceptance. That's just simply *still not* my self.

Keep us posted and hang in here.

Best regards,
Theta

Interesting advice! Thank you.

Thanks to ericalouwho for bumping this very old post up to present!
Thank you.
Apparently I was quite 'gone' back in Feb. when it originated and wasn't online enough to have read it back then. It's a good one.

Theta