I'm almost at a year since my concussion and my emotions have been effected greatly. The first couple of months I was just very quiet and what not.

Past 3 months or so, I've been very distant and that's not the person I am. I deal with depression on and off and truthfully it sucks. I can be alright one day and the next, I'm sitting in my room thinking I don't want to be here anymore b/c of the headaches.

A couple weeks ago my Dad said (I still live at home only 20) to me, "I miss my son" and I replied back to him, "I miss......myself" and I started to cry and I very rarely every cry. I want to be my old self again.

Yes, depression is a cruel monster. I thankfully don't feel like that's been part of my PCS experience but I have dealt with it in my past. All I can say without talking your digital ears off is hold on. You are not your sickness, there is more to you than PCS.

Interesting advice! Thank you.

Hi cody, et al -
While it is true that I don't have the angry & aggressive outbursts, that's not all good. My behavior is always 'good', appropriate and in conscious control. However, I am mindfully aware that:
All my anger and aggression is turned inward.
Anger, aggression turned inward = aggression and violence toward self. Not good. Can't help it.
All that formula adds up = severe painful depression. Not good.

Yes, I say the same thing, Cody.
And I feel very strongly the same, that I want my self back.
It's for me a sort of strength of determination that I actually *can* wrap my mind around.

Otherwise I just cannot force my mind to wrap around a blind-faith-passive-submission-acceptance. That's just simply *still not* my self.

Keep us posted and hang in here.

Best regards,
Theta

Thanks to ericalouwho for bumping this very old post up to present!
Thank you.
Apparently I was quite 'gone' back in Feb. when it originated and wasn't online enough to have read it back then. It's a good one.

Theta