Saw my therapist today. He is a great guy. Out of all the doctors I've seen he has been the most helpful. My neuropsychologist at the head injury clinic kept telling me my anxiety is hindering my recovery. I'm always trying to tell him, yes I have anxiety but I would think a certain amount of anxiety is normal considering all the changes in me.

Today my therapist told me he's trying to get in touch with the neurologist who told me that he was concerned that my cognitive deficits aren't going to improve. He feels that my problems are more depression and frustation and not anxiety. I told him that even though it's been eight 1/2 months that I am struggling with the changes in me. How can I not be? For 38 years I've been one way and now..well not so much.

I'm not losing hope I will regain some of my cognitive functioning but I also need to realize the new me might be here to stay and the old me is just that...old.

I'm sad, frustrated, angry and more angry that this happened to me. I'm sick of dealing with my head and really would do anything to get me back.

I know I should be grateful and I am. I know there are alot of people with more problems and I need to remind myself of this. There are times when pity sets in. Who wouldn't?

How do you guys learn or deal with the acceptance of your daily struggles? Did you all have an "ah ha" moment and I need to be patient?

I guess I'm just looking for some guidance. My therapist says because I look good it's really hard to imagine what is going on in my head. He says if I had lost a leg or arm then it's pretty final...it's not coming back. A head injury is so complex and so unknown that all they really can do is go on my symptoms.

Hope everyone is having a good day. It's almost 70 today. I had to nap after my appt. I was drained. Hoping there will be time left to enjoy this lovely weather.

Thanks all!!