I feel very miserable tonight.

I'm so frustrated by how much everything is hurting and how little anything is changing.

I feel really lonely at the moment. My 'friends' have well and truly all disappeared now. I can't remember the last time a friend called or messaged to see how I was doing and the last message I sent to them just got ignored.

Plus, my hormones seem to be going crazy or something because all I can think about is... ahem... being with a guy. I think about trying internet dating or something (I have seen a few blokes I wouldn't mind meeting with) but then I think, how am I going to cope in a pub? What if I start stammering? What happens when I go blank? What happens when I can't remember the question he just asked me?

I feel like I can't get on with my life. My 20s are slipping away from me. I look so much older than I am right now. My eyes are practically black from sleep deprivation and lack of sun/fresh air.

Plus I have only a month left to find a place and move out. I can't find anywhere affordable.

There's a couple of people I trust and want to reach out to but I just can't bring myself to ask them for help. I'm not very 'close' to them. I feel like it makes me weak. Or that I'm bothering/burdening them. Or they won't want to help me.

God this sounds pathetic. Just needed a good ramble.

Very sorry to hear what you're going through. Doesn't sound pathetic at all.

This is a very difficult injury, depending on severity. And in your 20s.
I'm in my late 30s, and as a single guy, I find it so difficult to try for a relationship, despite a strong attraction to women.

As far as a place to stay, etc.:

If you reach out to those you trust, they may refuse, but at least you'll have tried. Hopefully you have family if all friends fail.

Praying.

Sorry you are feeling this way at the moment. Thankfully feelings change. I think it would be good for you to keep account of things you are achieving.
We take for granted that we still are functioning, getting dressed, doing the washing up etc these are achievements. But I do understand that you are looking at the things you cannot do.
As regards your friends, I can appreciate that you do not need rejection. But the saying is true, good friends are there for you the rest are not friends.

I have fairweather friends but I accept that they cannot deal with the new me.
Mb things have changed for them too, they have lost you as the person you were.

Try something new that you can do. It may be slow work or a project but something is better than nothing.

Lots of love, keep in touch

Thanks for the replies and PMs everyone - trying to keep thinking positively. I'm so glad we can all connect here - I can't imagine having to go through this completely alone, in the days before the internet.