Im gonna quote my original introduction fist for those who didn't see it, but it also contains important information that I don't have to retype.


"Hello, I'm Nathanael Erik.

I ran into this site after searching online for a concussion/post concussive disorder support group. I don't really have friends, and I've been diagnosed with major depressive disorder #296.33 and general anxiety. I'm 25 years old. Rent a room so I'm sort of out on my own. I worked as a deli manager for the company I worked at for 6 years and change, and one morning I bashed my head (11/10/13) on the case glass doing price/ad changes. I didn't report it thinking it was a normal bump to the head, too excedrine migraine and worked my whole shift. Concern arose when my 1/2 hour drive home turned into 2 hours and no memory of it at all what so ever. Light was killing me, head pounding, I felt so sick... I called my mom and she took me to the er where I received a cat scan and neck brace and all that good stuff. Before leaving that night 11/10 I called the manager on duty and reported it to him over the phone. I was given one day off from the hospital, and resumed "work" as best as possible for about two weeks til my mom took me to the er again on 11/25 because symptoms were so bad. You name it I had it. I was pulled out of work from my neurosurgical doctor at the neruo center indefinitely two days later, and have been struggling with bills and stuff ever since. By the time I got short term disability going (workman's comp denied my claim) it was two weeks later and bills were adding up. I get paid now and their gone almost instantly. I was diagnosed with post concussive syndrome and obvious ataxia. Things are moving very slowly progress wise... I have so many symptoms I'm not gonna type em up. I've been so horribly depressed. My best friend treats me like you know what... and I don't have any other friends... my mom supports me the most, my sister does when she can but she has an 8 week old baby. I cry so much and feel so alone. I get so overwhelmed that simple tasks require writing down and then days to actually do. Its horrible. And I just cry...and cry... I hate living like this. Nothings getting better. I had a talk with my best friend about stepping it up and being a true friend in my obvious time of need but its difficult. Currently being ignored 6 days in a row... I'm so hurt by him and its adding up with everything else going on and just manifesting... I have my Dr, psychiatrist, therapist, physical therapy and occupational therapy. I can sleep through two alarms and phone calls. I don't wake up. Uhm... I'm tired and not sure what else to say. I will introduce myself in the other appropriate forums as well then.. I'm open to questions and all that... hoping for... anything...I dunno. But that's part of my story... and if you read this thank you and if you replied thank you even more.

Sincerely,
Nathanael Erik "

I feel like everything is getting worse, and though it only happened in November, its just way too much to bear. Im more of a, "convenient" friend for my best friend, who's been horrible lately... I know in his heart he's still himself, hes just selfish and only cares about himself right now. I don't have friends other than him. I never really did..

Im just so sick, and tired, and overwhelmed, and I don't know what to do...
I don't have the strength...