[Almost]

Hi all,
So the MRI isn't necessarily the issue. The panic an anxiety about the MRI are. I am claustrophobic so Dr makes sure I have medication to take to calm me down same as the last two. I got through the first two and I could not even get into the machine, I fell like even with the medication that I am having a panic attack.

In fact I feel anxiety like I never have before. My comments may sound childish I know. They have done two already of the brain and now want/need one for the ears. I feel bad that I could not go through with it and then I get angry ab
Out having to go through it.

Non of this is my fault! I want my life back! So much for acceptance and calm rational thoughts toward that end. I am angry!

Thanks for listening....

[Mark in Idaho]

Take your own ear plugs that you know work good. Lay on the table. Have the tech cover you will a warm blanket and cuddle up under it. Before the tech puts the transducer cage in place, close your eyes. Hold your elbows in close. Think of nice open spaces.

Keep your eyes closed until the test is over and you are out.

I am extremely claustrophobic and have used this for the 6 or more MRI's I have had. One was just last September.

With proper technique, you can do it without any problem. The anti-anxiety med can take the edge off the pre-test anxiety.

If they offer you additional ear muff hearing protection with or without music, it may be worth considering.

For the vast majority of us with PCS, our injury is not our fault. That thought is likely contributing to holding you back from getting better.

None of my 14 concussions were due to me taking any risk. They are all in the past. The cause is of no value because it does not change my future. My attitude changes my future.

[Almost]

Hi Mark,
I had two MRI's just over the past 9 months...managed with some of the strategies you suggested. For whatever reason this time it was something I could not overcome.

I apologize for my rant about this not being my fault, I am usually not so negative and i do recognize it does hinder me from maximum healing.

Just a feel sorry for myself moment....it has been a tough week and it is only Tuesday!

Tomorrow will be better!

[brownehn]

This is an off-the-cuff observation, Almost, but what you just went through sounds a LOT like what I have been going through for about five weeks now, as well as what many PCS people and some with neurotransmitter imbalances (eg depression) go through. Mainly, 'crazy' emotions, often coming and going, or changing, quickly, in ways that just aren't your usual self.

Just last Saturday I all but attacked my visiting brother when we simultaneously went to answer some church proselytizers at our door. I have had scraps with him before, but this was still striking. I was actually feeling pretty good that morning. When the church people came I wanted to get rid of them quickly because I'm not into their schpiel[?] but my brother reacted oppositely. I got there first but before I could say anything he came up, put his arm around me, and proceeded to try to coax me into some sort of acceptance or conversation. It happened in less than a second: I violently shoved him away, provoking anger and hurt on his part. Looking back it was a familiar situation that triggered something primal, it happened so quickly. I felt terrible and made it up to my brother--I don't really hate him or want to hurt him in any way--in fact I need him and others now. But it truly seems my brain's ability to control emotions, particularly the most basic, is frequently compromised.

I don't have a strategy for dealing with it. but you may want to view things and yourself a bit differently while going through this very strange journey we all are on. Keep in touch!