Mmmm, let's see, lefty Lucy, Righty, Ethel. Isn't that correct?

isn't that from the I Love Lucy show?
whaaa?

TGIF yay!
i have the wk/e off!
tomorrow is my massage day. then i'm coming home to take a nap. i already have that planned out.

sun is an "in" day. read the paper and watch the Bronco's. GO DENVER!
curious is snug in his bedpan ready to watch the show. and sunny is positioned to help me walk.

only 5 wks left of radiation. so far, so good.
i've kept true to myself in my mission to get dressed (of course i would).
i mean to not go like a slob. i don't dress up but wear something nice, put on a little makeup and of course some JEWLERY today i just put on my simple diamond stud earrings.

i bought them for myself when i turned 40 and wasn't married. if a man wasn't in the cards to buy me diamonds then I certainly would. never regretted it yet.

have a nice wk/e everyone

Amen, sister! Us single chicks have to find our own studs.

Glad you're keeping up your life, it's encouraging to see you so determined. Hm. Maybe even inspirational???

Have a good weekend everyone! It's going to be raining here all weekend which is not good since I wanted to get out in the yard. Weight is stable but temptation is looking over my shoulder. LOL

Judy You are inspirational and a real trooper to all of us.

sandy,
how is jim? did they get the infection under control?
i hope he avoided the hospital.

He's doing the same, no changes so that's good. He was able to eliminate one germ but he still has ecoli. They think he may be colonized since he's not really sick but his nitrates and leuks are positive. Normally if you have positive nitrates and leuks there is most definitely an infection. The doctor and I think that maybe because he has a piece of ileum attached to the bladder (stoma) the ecoli is showing up? It's pretty much a wait and see situation.

He said last night he may feel the need to go on in if he doesn't get control over the legs tightening up. See, we're not sure if it's the infection or ms. That's what's so hard. The good news is if he has to get an IV the doctor said he can do it as an outpatient as long as he's not sicker than now.

We'll see how he is on Monday and make a decision then. Thanks for asking, .

i had my massage today and it was a good one.
ran a few errands and now i'm home. i'm going down for a nap.

i slept terrible last nite. went to bed at normal hr but i couldn't get comfortable and had to get up. plus my (negative) voice (in my head) was doing a # on me. the same old tune. "you're worthless, you're terrible, you're ugly and unlovable", etc. i'm pretty good at combating it.

so i got up and watch some hurricane CNN, countered the voice and went to bed. this time i fell asleep and even slept a little late this am.

i've been a bit depressed too. i keep telling myself all the positive things i have to be thankful for. however, i still feel down. you'd think going to the radiation tx every day i'd be thankful it's there to help me. but somehow it serves as a daily reminder that i have cancer.

then my breast is swollen and red and it hurts. i'm also a little afraid of the next 5 wks as to how it'll hold up. so i know i need to stop this. however it holds up i'll deal with it. it'll be behind me. every zap makes me closer to cancer free.

i see my therapist tues and will talk to him.

oh, how nice. my friend just called. she's going to pick me up after my nap and we're going to dinner. italian. but, DM, no pizza

Enjoy your dinner tonight Judy. With all you go through I don't know how you manage to not feel down every once in awhile. The important thing is you come through it and pick yourself back up.

i had a very nice evening out with my friend.
her call came at just the right time. we were both thinking of each other.
actually i called her and she called me back. esp.

we talked and she validated a lot of my feelings. i feel much better and feel ready to tackle wk 2. tomorrow is a day of rest. reading the sunday paper over coffee and watching the football game.

also, my housekeeper is coming. that's always welcome.