Hello Judy dear~ I'm home from another wkend away. We had glorious weather, but the sun got a little warm at times, so I just cowered in the shade. I ate way too much, so think I found the 2 lbs that Sandy lost. *go Sandy*

After camping season is over, people won't be putting trays of food in front of my face all day long. I ate alot of salami that looked like AMN'S avvy. Salami and swiss cheese~ YUMMO!

Watched the race this afternoon and it was a disaster for my driver. BOO!

Sorry that BB is still acting up. Hasn't she been through enough????

So, guess your'e at hump day Judy! It's going to go fast and you will sale through it; I just know you will. One of these days, this will be behind you and we'll have to have a huge cyber party!! I look funny in party hats, but for you~ I'll do it!

Rest well my friend and I luvs you too!!!!

Okay, what did I miss? "BB"? You must mean Lucy or Ethel?

Well, I'm glad the girls are settling down now, they really need some discipline and Jane Russell is just the one to deliver it, cross my heart!

It turned into a poopy day during my nap, I woke up to rain and gloom which makes me ever so proud that I cleaned up and covered the charcoal grill this morning! FYI, gas grills are FW (For Wimps).

My early designs on the day had a few errands involved, my reality was a long nap. This disease just Ps me O sometimes!

Weight is steady so far in spite of my annual apples w/peanut butter binge. My guts aren't rebelling too much so I am ever so thankful for that.

Oh, and I peed my pants today.

BB = Betty Boob

i love rain cindy. except when you have to go out in it and move as slowly as we do.

DM, sorry about the lbs but glad you made it back to us without falling.

this is going to be a long 3 wks.
all underneath my brst is red, raw, itchy, irritated, painful skin. and it's likely not going to get better til some time after the tx's are finished.

i'm picking up yet another Rx from the pharmacy tomorrow.
can't quite remember the name. they use it for burns. silvadeen i think.

anyway, i'm kind of miserable, in pain and very tired. and, i'm very testy.
see ya's tomorrow.

Feel better tomorrow Judy.

Judy silvadine if thats spelled right works great, hope your day on tuesday is a good one

(((((Judy)))))

well, i change in the radiation plan.
i don't know why the dr nor the nurse mentioned this yesterday. every monday we meet. i only heard this from the techs today.

so apparently what they're going to do is starting the 6th (monday) i'm getting targeted tx's to a much smaller area. basically the area of the cancer/surgery. "that will give the rest of my breast time to start healing".

i'm going to ask more Q's about that tomorrow. like, is this usual and customary or have we veered off course for a reason.

i've been doing a lot of thinking and come to the conclusion that i'm not getting emotional care over there. i broached the subject of being depressed yesterday. how the pain and fatigue is affecting me + the MS. mostly what folks do is be very +. which i can understand. and i have a lot to be + about.

BUT am i allowed to feel like i'm a person that has cancer? like this daily grind is a lot for ME to handle. plus the pain in my breast and rawness of my skin. aren't i allowed any negative emotions. that can be talked thru?

i guess that's for the support group class on wed's. but i can't go tomorrow.
anyway, i was trying to rest and my mind was racing. i put in a call to my therapist and he happened to check his message just then. and called me back. it was a good talk and i see him next wk.

also it's the Jewish holidays (the New Year). the most solemn holidays of the the Jewish calendar. i was supposed to be in Fla with my family but got waylayed with this. so i'm just feeling sorry for myself. and a bit lonely.
cathy is very busy with work and her sick uncle. she hasn't called. and val is busy with her family too and hasn't called. even my brother and his family havn't called.

i feel like stopping the first 20 people i see on the street and asking for hugs. i think the one thing i miss the most is physical contact.

well, enuf of whoa is me. i'm getting sick of it.
how bout only 3 days til the 6th when they stop radiating the whole breast.
and, finally, the new medicine is helping with the pain. it's still painful to touch but it's starting to help.

well, now that i've written a book....
i'm going to have a lean cuisine for dinner.

I've been AWOL from this thread long enough. Shame on me. Still sending gentle hugs and healing thoughts.

Sending very gently hugs your way Judy. You have so much going on, I
wish some of us lived closer to you. Im glad you will be able to talk to your therapist next week.

Hang in there.

Hiya, Weave, good to see ya'.

You're going to make it through all of this, dear Judy, and the zaps will end. Keep the girls moist with the topical and don't forget a basic analgesic might just help.

I know it's not your style, but you might need to slow it down just a bit more and give yourself a better chance to get through some of the emotional healing process. You were invaded by an enemy, again by a surgeon, and routinely by a treatment protocol.

This is absolutely an emotional time for you and I'd like to encourage you to attend temple this week, just to make some higher connection.