Hi,

I'm not getting enough sleep.
Last night I was sitting at the computer and working on my father's manuscript until 4:00 am.

I feel asleep and saw something / someone (not necessarily bad -- not necessarily good.)


My living space feels crowded right now.
Since that moment last night I feel like there are a lot of people in here /my space. I told them to go away and leave me alone. They are still here. I am trying to ignore them. Tdoc says that I am in control.

I'm not feeling in control.


This might be about my parents' visiting.



I want my living space clear.


I was free of this for many years. Now it came back.
M.

Hi,
I called tdoc's answering machine at her office.

Told her what was happening and to call me back.

She gave me her cell phone number when I got out of the hospital in July but I have not used it since then and I lost it anyway.

M.

Tdoc returned call.
She said I sound really tired.

She did a slow breathing exercise.
Also body relaxation over the phone.
She reminded me that I know how to do this for myself.
And that I can feel safe.

We made an appointment with her Wed evening.
I have her cell phone number.

M.

i just saw your post. how upsetting..how very upsetting...you pushed yourself too much darn it...you will be all right. can you stop with the manuscript? is there a medication you can get right now? i am so sorry you are suffering so much. i hope your husband and family are understanding.
hugs and warmth
bobby

Thank you Bobby.
I took notes during tdoc's phone call.
I can see her words back to me when I need them.
Klonopin would help but I would fall asleep and be out for a few hours. And I would feel drugged up.
Sleep would be nice.
M.

I hate to think you are suffering when you don't have to. Isn't your mind telling you you need to reduce as much stress as you can now so going to sleep would be great?
bobby