well, i set the alarm for 10.30 (it was 10 when i posted)... hit snooze once, then turned it off and slept till about 11.30. then i felt better. i think i needed it. i think the increased need for sleep is probably stress recovery.

i had decreased my benzo about 4 nights ago, because i suspected excessive sedation. is long acting... it takes that long to notice a decrease. yesterday and today i noticed anxiety. i guess i better increase it again.

at least i did get up at 9, make coffee, took my zoloft then... that might help to make me tired earlier in the evening. one can hope. i set up a pre-program on the heat so that we can have it turn itself up automatically after 6 hours (getting up easier when freezing butt off not involved)

i missed my pdoc appointment. it was at earlier time than usual and i forgot that. he called when i was getting ready to take the bus ... 45 mins into my scheduled appointment! he has a convention next week and won't be able to see me till 2 weeks away. i declined his offer to try to rearrange his schedule to fit me in tomorrow. i thanked him and said if i were ill i'd accept, but i am ok enough that i don't want him to add that inconvenience to my screwup.

i called the epilepsy center - talked to the volunteer coordinator. i proposed 2 half days, and am waiting for the office manager to call me back to confirm. if it works for her i will be going there tuesdays and thursdays 10am to 2pm.

i called the software consultant i'd put "on hold" regarding my job search. no answer - he might be away this week, since there was a long weekend. he may call back or i will.

now i will look for something else to do. i should "crack" my homework, but i am feeling resistant towards it. there are a couple of other things i want to do. maybe i can do a bit and a bit. i am bad at handling situations like this... i get very all or nothing. i need to improve my time/task management.

~ waves ~ nervous... i hate expecting callbacks.

good you for calling!!!!
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Waves

I'm proud of all you accomplished.

Donna

thanks Donna and Bizi.

just waiting for the E center to call now...

the consultant called back early yesterday evening. it's cool he didn't decide to liquidate me or anything. this morning i sent him my updated resume. one down.

i had bad anxiety last night. took 2.5mg lorazepam. it mostly helped. it will take a while for the regular benzo to build up again.

today i have to
- call in and pick up a script from my GP
- call the school and tell them i'm available for teaching

yesterday i ended up taking out all the recycling/trash from the long weekend but didn't do any homework. i can't seem to get with the homework, so i am trying to break down the task a whole bunch here. so maybe today i can:
- open my homework assignments
- find and read the description of one i'm supposed to do next

i woke up at 8 spontaneously and took my coffee. this time i made the bed right away. at worst i can crash on the couch which is uncomfortable (but if i'm that tired i won't care.) but next thing is i am going to get dressed and make like i'm a regular human being or something.

~ waves ~

Waves
What a wonderful morning you have had already.

If you can't do more than open your assignment book. And pick
out a section to do. Then say read a few of the pages and put
the thing back down. Do at least that. It would then consist
of having done some homework.

I will give you a thought. I am going to be gone till at least Friday
night. Maybe longer, I am going to inservice training with all my
bosses and co-workers. So maybe you can get one assisnment
completely started when I get back. If not done.

Donna

P.S. You have inspired me to have a great day. And its just 7:30am
here. Thanks

wow! 8am I am very impressed!
good for you!!!!!
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Waves, nobody says you have to do it all in one bang! You're doing great!!!

You've inspired me to make a to-do list of my own!

Thanks,

Kay

no time for homework
yesterday had to translate resume for schoool for their archive and send
then talked to consultant... had to prep for nterview today

today....
spend mornign at E center
afternoon interview

tomorrow...
followup interview 9.30 am with client
means alarm set at 6.30 and i must sleep now

will check in again and update when it's all over.

TGIF tomorrow.



~ waves ~

good luck in all matters!!!!!!
Look at what you are doing!
good for you!
bizi

You seem much more focused Waves!!!

I hope everything goes smoothly!

Kay