thank you
I woke up today and i wasn't depressed. yesterday the depression came later. I don't know what will happen today. I am so pleased about the doctor. I ate too much yesterday and two of the things were bad....licorice and onion rings.
I have to stop that. I know look at that behavior as self destructive.
bobby

it is so good to hear that for 2 days you didn't wake up depressed! :heartthrob: even if yesterday you got depressed later on. that is a change in pattern for you, from waking up depressed and feeling better later. this could be light at the end of the tunnel. have you been getting out lately, to the center? (i'm one to talk i go nowhere... :rolleyes: like, here take my advice, i'm not using it! sigh. still.)

for the eye appointment, can you think in terms of getting past it, rather than getting to it. often, that is the only "carrot" that works for me when there is something i am afraid of doing or do not want to do. like the cardio stuff, and now there is other medical stuff too. so one thing you could do, is set a time with yourself, that you will pick up the phone, and make the appointment. then the ball is rolling, and inevitably, you will get it over with.

i *really* need to renew my id, but i keep forgetting (how subliminally convenient...eh... :rolleyes:). perhaps i should set a "memo" with advance alarm, in my cell... that would stick it to the subliminal.

i too know that eating inadequate foods is self destructive but i think at times the need for immediate satisfaction becomes overwhelming. maybe that is why we do it. i bought a big stick of white chocolate with weird rice crisps and hazel chips (it was not as good as it sounds, btw) ... i teetered over it when i was at the shelf... i almost walked away. but i have been craving white chocolate for ages. i caved. now i wish i hadn't mostly because i will probably buy some of the good stuff. i might get myself to wait until after my dental work. thank goodness i don't do this often.

i hope your day is coming out well today. i steamed fennel bulbs and then lightly toasted them with salt pepper and garlic, as a dinner vegetable. so i have made a family contribution today. i hate how no matter what i do, i feel i should to more, more more. and the result is, i sit on my globby butt, and do less, less, less!!!

love

waves who hasn't had an onion ring in ages... yummmmmmmm!!!

I think getting the eye appt out of the way will help you.

So please make the appt. So it will be off your list.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

glad to hear that you felt better this morning, two days in a row!!!!!!!!!
Are you having eye problems or are you worried that they will find something wrong?
I forget if you mentioned this already.
do you wear glasses? or is this a routine check up?
maybe it can wait 6 more months I don't know. Do you have to go?maybe you are putting more pressure on your self than you need to.
(((((HUGS)))))
know that I care about you
bizi

hi waves
i am going to try to take your advise about thinking that the eye appointment is over. yes i still go to the center and now i miss ralph the guy who went to haiti for three months. I mostly do a crossword puzzle or two when i am there.
the table isn't that talkative.
i woke up really early this morning and again i wasn't depressed. yesterday i started getting depressed as the day progressed. rats. it seems to be a new pattern. I watched most of the whitney houston funeral. i guess that is depressing.
i pigged out yesterday on spinach. i microwaved chopped spinach and then when it was defrosted threw in two eggs and then ate it with reduced fat grated cheese. i liked it so much i made another batch. what you ate sounded good.
i can understand so well why you haven't wanted to go out. i think it is so related to depression and financial stuff. i haven't gone to the movies for so long and don't want to pay 11 dollars to go.
I know yesterday i called up to find out what another drug would cost. it would cost over 120 dollars for three months. I really am going to send away and try to get some drugs from that reach out program where that drug is sixty five dollars.
love
bobby

i think you are right. i will try to force myself to make one on tuesday.
bobby

i am not aware of having eye problems but am worried that they will find something. as I mentioned, last time i went he had a new machine that checked the back of the eyes and he had trouble getting a good reading. as he tried and tried i freaked and freaked.
i do wear glasses and he told me to come back in six or seven months. i am overdue now by a few months. it is a routine check up. if it hadn't been for his having trouble, i wouldn't be sweating about this.
thank you for your kind sentiments.
love
bobby

Oh Bobby, I am sending hugs, I think the passing of such a young woman as Whitney Huston was depressing this week with the funeral it just brought some sadness and depression aloft.

Sending you some hugs and tell you I think you are a dear special friend and so glad to have you as one. Hoping for continued better days.
di

i can imagine.

maybe the doc wasn't yet accustomed to his new machine, and issues that might arise with it... i.e. limitations/problems, workarounds.

i just want to relate that this happened to my mom when she went to an eye clinic in a shopping mall. it scared the dickens out of her too. then she went elsewhere and they had no trouble getting a reading. also, last time at a very good optometrist, they had trouble reading my left eye with the insta-machine. i am not worried. again i think it was the tech or the machine.

it's possible some machines have trouble when there are "in between" readings, the same way a computer chip will get "confused" if you place ~ 2.5V on an input pin... it's not a logical 1 (5V) and it's not a logical 0 (0V). chip can't handle it. electronically the output is "undefined" - you can literally get anything. the logic system fails. i don't know if you studied digital circuits but i did and that's how it works.

main point is : many possible explanations, other than a problem with your eyes. if he still has problems this time, i would seriously go to another doc, at least to get the proper reading.

love

waves

I agree with waves.
:I-Agree:
bizi