I wish you could make that list today. or least start it. maybe just do one a day....You are being so hard on yourself, You would not be this hard on someone else that you care about. I know that, why judge yourself so harshly? that is what you are doing.
You are kind and loving and have a lot of great qualities.
yes you really have to watch the carbs, all things in moderation.
I was so depressed that I was not losing weight...seemed to be gaining that I threw in the towel and ate non stop for a couple of days, and drank too.:o
said heck with it...but then I got back on the scale and had only gained a pound when I thought I had gained 4 pounds...my weight fluctuates so much it is hard to know if I am really losing or not.
I am back to using french vanilla creamer in my coffee. full of sugar but I felt deprived of it and can't do that long term, i missed it too much. Same thing with your ice cream. It is unthinkable to say that you are never going to have ice cream again...just keep some moderation to it. The great thing about a diet is that you can restart it at any time. The best way to think about a diet is thinking in terms of life style changes. And the reasons why we eat. comfort eating, stress eating, boredom eating....
Last night I decided I wanted to eat something after dinner a couple of hours, it was a light dinner. So I decided on a fiber one bar, not that many calories and had some chocolate in it and lots of fiber which is good for us. It was satisfying, I did not need to eat any more. And then brushed my teeth. I don't like to eat after I brush my teeth.
anyway.
love you
bizi

Dear Bobby,

I hope you took your meds.

I am happy that you got help from your doc/endo about suggestions for eating. You have more information for your eating plan now.



Mari

Hi Bobby
 

Sometimes life is just overwhelming, all the different things we must cope with. sometimes a good cry helps too. I know I run back here, when I feel low, just to connect to you, and waves and bizi, and to know others care about us. That to me is a gift. You have a big heart Bobby, as you care about those folks around you. Not all people have that kind of empathy. Keep coming back right here with all of us. I do need you too. You are in my thoughts and prayers bobby, and so is the whole gang too. ginnie

i am afraid to get on scale now too but the two pints of ice cream i ate in two days were worth it. i haven't been enjoying the food i have been eating. I also bought more dino nuggets chicken because they were on sale and are yummy....i either cook them or eat them frozen. it is really hard to be on a diet all the time and especially when you have plateaued. eeks.
i thought of two things to add to my list ...i try not to hurt anybody when i talk to them and are very mindful of their feelings and oops i just forgot the second one. thinking that yesterday made me feel a lot better about myself because i knew it was bona fided. I think a lot of things and censor a lot of things in case it might make somebody upset. call it creative. people i think respond much better to positive comments anyways and negative always pulls one down. why do i always pull myself down. I guess i still haven't accepted that i have all these mental conditions and consider myself a failure and blame myself. i still compare myself to high performers and come out flat on my face. as i have gotten older things have gotten worse.
love
bobby

thank you so much Ginnie.....you are so appreciated and give so very much
bobby

i took my medications....i still don't know why i pulled that stunt...i guess pure self destructiveness.
i didn't like my doctor's suggestions. they often have fish twice a week at the center and i don't like fish that much. it doesn't fill me and the taste is iffy but at least i don't have to spend a lot of money for it and they cook it for me and i get chicken there twice a week. i guess i will be stuck with more chicken and salads. i have to look up the carbohydrates in humus. yesterday i didn't obsess as much about the supreme court. i think i can always move in with my cousin who told me we would hate each other after a little while.
bobby

dear waves
i came up with one idea yesterday for my list that i try not to hurt anybody and that made me feel good about myself. i dwelt on that a lot and couldn't punch holes in it. thanks so much
love
bobby

yeay! you felt good about yourself.
that is awesome!:)
keep doing this.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Okay, I like this idea. One idea a day.

So its time to think of todays item.

So what will it be.


hmmmm, maybe I will be........



Oh who knows.


Now the idea about the dog. You might try going to a local
humane center. Because you seem to enjoy helping with dogs and
cats. And that way you could give some individual time to them.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

You bet!
 

Dear Bobby

this is wonderful! :):):)

I am so happy for you! :heartthrob:

love

~ waves ~