My sister was thrilled to hear that i would be the designated driver, she is the one that suggested it or rather declared it .lol 70-80's dance music and tables to sit down at. It will be fun!
bizi

Yes Bizi

It will be fun. And being the designated driver. Gives you a great
reason for not drinking. SO if someone ask you can tell them that.

Its not a problem for me. But I really love this for you.

Donna:hug: :grouphug:

who knows maybe I could get free soft drinks????
bizi

I will be at 120 days tomorrow. 16 weeks! almost 4 months!
Going home for the holidays will be a challenge for me. I have told all in my family that I will not be drinking so no one should offer me a drink. WE are going to indiana where there will be cold and snow most likely. I hate the cold. I have Raynauds disorder, fingers and toes turn white and hurt, circulation thingy, runs in my family.

I want to be a non-drinker...not a drinker who can't drink.
In some ways I don't like the word sober for me. That has a negative meaning in my book. That I was somehow a drunk...which I was not. I don't think I am an alcoholic either. I just was having a problem drinking. I loved to drink But...I started drinking more often and earlier in the day. An occasional drink or 2 at lunch between work, I started guzzleing my drink, hiding it from jeff.....it was becoming a real problem. Was sleeping like crap.
Maybe I was headed to becoming an alcoholic, maybe.....
or maybe my bipolar meds were not working right because I was drinking so much and I was becoming manic and thus the increased drinking.
What I do know is that I am more in control, I feel more stable now and my meds are working the way they are supposed to be working. ( My psychiatrist said I could have one beer a day, yeah right!)

The holidays are upon us...we are headed up north for a couple of weeks. This will be a big challenge for me to stay Alcohol Free. I feel anxious about it. I know that I need to take it a day at a time.....Have already made plans to be the designated driver for the new years eve bash that we are attending with my twin sister.
Our birthday is the 1st and it is a lot of fun being together for our birthday.
It has been a while since we did that.
It is being held in a german restaurant there will be plenty of food to eat, entrance includes a buffet.
There will be a live band playing 70-80's music the band is zannado and they are a dance band. So it will be fun!
I keep telling myself that.....
Since I told myself that I don't drink anymore....I guess that makes me a non drinker.

Hey Bizi.:)I'm proud of you!!! BF:hug::hug::hug:

Bizi,

Here's to good health, good cheer, and good decisions over the holidays.
Have a good time being AF.

M

you have climbed a mountain ...a very difficult mountain.
love
bobby

Bizi

I'm like the rest of these guys very happy and proud of you.

And make sure you bring lots of warm clothes. It is very cold
up here right now. I will hope for it to get warmer for you. And
even me but I want a white Christmas.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thank you so much!
I am just waiting for that AF sparkle....
guess I need to be patient about that.
bizi

I saw my therapist tonight.
She said of course I am grieving giving up alcohol.
She understood that exactly.
Like she said nobody goes to AA and says how wonderful they feel giving up drinking!
I told her that someone said to me "the honey moon is over" She is right.
Unless I work on the reasons why I drank then I will not have the strength to stay sober.
I am glad that I have her on my corner of support.
She has been sober 21 years.
My Psychiatrist said that I have an addictive personality.....
She is right you know. I spend s lot of my spare time on line, reading blogs, going to chat rooms,
But you all know this, I have said this before.
I don't know how to quit.
I need to get a real life outside of this computer world.
bizi