Kay,
That is good news about the pdoc visit yesterday.

Keep doing what is working for you with regard to the meds and whatever you
do during your day to help.

M

It was 70 degrees on Christmas Eve, but it was in the 20's overnight and it snowed. It's sleeting now. About 2" stuck to the ground and 4" stuck to our car. My husband has a work vehicle so he has to leave our car here. I cleaned it off this morning and will have to move it to a clean spot in the parking lot whenever the plow comes. I'm nervous because I haven't been behind the wheel in a year.


Adding to all the stress I've been dealing with over the last couple of months, I've been keeping a couple of health problems to myself...

I have a history of ovarian cysts. I can tell when I have them, but have only had them imaged a couple of times. I had one checked out last month because it was especially painful. The ultrasound report said it was "atypical." Because of my history, I may just have endometriosis. But the treatment for it is a change of birth control or hormone treatment... not ideal when you're bipolar, definitely not in my case. I talked to pdoc about it briefly. She's not exactly thrilled. The cyst could also be something more nefarious. I have a follow up ultrasound Jan. 4th, and I have to see my GYN no matter what the results are.

I had an abnormal pap smear in my early 20s (I'm 35) but was only having them every 3yrs because they kept coming back normal. I had one in October and it came back with high grade precancerous cells. So did the biopsy. My GYN says my husband still carries the HPV virus and because I smoke and I'm older it's harder to clear it. I have to have follow-up testing in March. No sex, no tampons until then... UGH. It's a long time to wait, but my GYN wants to make sure the test results are correct before I have to undergo a procedure.

Just 2 more reasons why my anxiety has been higher. But I think I've been doing a pretty good job of distracting myself from these worries for a while, but since the follow-up ultrasound is coming up soon, they're coming back into the foreground again...
I was hoping that the ultrasound would show that the cyst is gone, but I can still feel it. I just don't want to have to have it removed.

They're worries, they add to my anxiety, but not playing a role in my intrusive thoughts. But they play into the catastrophic thinking, but not all of it though.

The plow came and cleared the parking lot yesterday. They didn't start clearing spots until today because we continued to get snow, sleet, and freezing rain yesterday. I moved the car today without any trouble. Despite a 1yr hiatus from driving at least I can still navigate a parking lot.

Rocky was really sick last night. He was throwing up and having a lot of diarrhea. I felt so bad.
I decided not to put food out last night. If being adorable doesn't work, cats will give you dirty looks and misbehave when they don't get their way. How would you like a 26lb cat thumping on your chest like you're a CPR dummy half the night trying to get you out of bed to feed him?

As soon as I put the food down this morning Rocky started scarfing it down, and then he started throwing up everywhere. I usually leave the food out so they can nibble on it all day, but I decided to take it away. He's already looking for it. They all had an opportunity to eat. Rocky needs to rest his stomach again. And I need a rest from cleaning up after him.

I shouldn't have written about the medical stuff yesterday. I wish I could take that back. I guess some things you should keep to yourself.

I am so sorry to hear about rocky. do you think you might take him to the vet or has this happened before?
give rocky a kiss from me
bobby

My husband called me into the bedroom last night because he heard one of the cats making a weird noise... Rocky was chewing on the tape that was holding the padding I put on the exercise bike seat. I don't know how he got to it because none of the tape was loose. I think he's attracted to the smell of the glue because he has a thing for tape... I can't leave packages out. I pulled it off and threw it in the trash, but one of the devils pulled it out of the garbage last night.

I think he probably swallowed some of the tape sometime yesterday and it needs to pass through his system. I'd be worried if he wasn't going to the bathroom or if he was acting sick (aside from the throwing up and the diarrhea).

dear kay,
it is good to catch up with what has been going on. feel free to ask a mod to delete a post if you prefer to not have your medical stuff posted. they are happy to do that.
We are able to delete posts up to 12 hours, i think...with out mod intervention.
I think all of us have deleted things before.
(((((HUGS)))))
Anniversary dates are hard and this one was a biggie.
Be kind to yourself.
maybe you can sit on a pillow on your bike?
sorry that rocky ate the tape...poor guy.
bizi

Kay,

I hope that your kitty is o.k.


M

Thank you Bizi

I did sit on a pillow when I used the exercise bike yesterday. It worked out okay because it's a recumbent bike. Buddy kept jumping on my lap, not realizing my lap was going to keep moving lol. He did it three times before he finally gave up.

Rocky finally stopped throwing up around noon. I put the food back down around 4:30 because I was tired of him harassing me and I felt guilty. He stopped throwing up so he must have passed the tape he swallowed. I'm so happy he feels better And I'm happy I don't have to clean up all that mess

The medical stuff's been out there long enough already. I figure the damage has already been done. And if I get bad news on a follow up the other ladies have the background info now and will understand why I'm freaking out.

I've been freezing indoors for a couple of months now. We keep the heat at 68-72 degrees. I wear a long-sleeved shirt and a sweat shirt, and keep a blanket on me up to my chest. When I went to the weekend driving class I had to wear my jacket inside and still froze...
My husband keeps giving me a hard time about it, so I googled cold-intolerance... I didn't realize it's a symptom of hypothyroidism, which I have. I'm wondering if my synthroid dose needs to be adjusted. I'll ask my PCP to check my thyroid levels since they haven't been run in a long time. He'll probably check a bunch of other **** too. It couldn't hurt with the other things going on (which I should update him on). I'm not in a rush though. It can wait.

Kay

Its nice to catch up on what is going on with you. Have a great New year.

Donna

i am so glad that rocky is feeling okay now and you have less work to do lol
bobby