I have been searching for food that helps with high blood pressure and lowering cholesterol. I am so tired of medicines with side effects!

Marci arranged most of the tunics I have bought and it was so upsetting to see how out of control I have been. It was really painful. She put them in a big container. Abby had so much fun playing in it when it was empty. I think Marci is really beginning to get it that I am mentally ill. I am going to try to control myself and not go to Ebay. I ate a lot again tonite. The kiwis didn't work. I think I had had too much fiber.
I am so greatful I have Marci. She is so special.

I wish we did not have to face ourselves, warts and all we are in this together.
((((HUGS))))
love bizi

you are so right!
love
bobby

i am rereading a book i really enjoyed. I am enjoying another book too

the antidepressant hasn't started to work. I am so depressed. I also don't feel well. I see a new cardiologist on wednesday who is supposed to be really nice.
I spoke with Suri and that put me in a very sad mood. She said she was feeling okay but didn't know what to eat. I emailed her some suggestions. Then I sent her a link for what to eat that helps fight breast cancer. I don't know if I should have done that. I reread the reviews about that medicine one of my cardiologists wants me to take. I just can't handle any negative effects and so many people wrote about experiencing them. A lot of patients complained of pain and I already have a lot of pain with my legs and back. I have been having more trouble walking. Praluent User Reviews for High Cholesterol at Drugs.com
I have been watching too much msnbc and that is such a bummer. I am going to try to get an aide to go to another doctor's appointment on aug the 26. On their website it had two appointments listed and then when I checked again it had only one. I have to straighten that out.
I think my main depression is bipolar.
I bought another tunic. I am so scared about my air conditioning bill and my credit card statement. I haven't been thinking much about God. I have to do that.
Only Aplenzin worked for me. I won't ask my psychiatrist to try another one. I tried so many.
I really miss that young Rabbi. I haven't felt like seeing Stella or talking to Zeynep. I feel so alienated.

hi bobby,
I am sorry you are in pain and your depression is not lifting.
Have you ever tried cymbalta?

It is supposed to address both of those issues?
bizi

I think I have any it didn't do anything

As with any new medications, sometimes they take weeks to kick in.

Maybe you could ask your pdoc to review your chart...if that is possible?
Of course that is if you want to.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

I did try it and I only got side effects. I really have tried them all. Sleeping pills haven't worked for me either.

I am sorry bobby, it must be so frustrating to try new things and get your hopes up and then have them fail.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

it really is. that is why i have given up on sleeping pills and antidepressant except aplenzin. That is also why I don't want to try that drug for cholesterol because I am so scared about the side effects. I am watching my diet. I don't know what gives with my blood pressure. My readings are a lot higher than when I have gone to the doctor. Also the laxative sometimes works. rats
I finished a book that I already read and I can't control myself from watching the news from 5 to 12.

I just checked my credit card balance and it was less than I thought it would be.
That made me relieved. I should have checked the temperature. It was 69 and I immediately turned off my air conditioner. I definitely will go to the g.i. doctor in September and ask for an endoscopy. My stomach is bothering me too much and too often. I might ask for a different laxative.
I hope the antidepressant works today. I really do feel relieved about the credit card balance. I worry about money and my spending too much. I don't understand why I feel so alienated.
Pudge slept with me last night. That was so nice. Then in the middle of the night Abby jumped down and she let me pet her for a while. It was weird because shortly before that I had been wishing for Abby
I am going to try to keep my apartment neater for Marci. I think I can do it. Once again Robert helped me. I wrote him and asked if I could use the charger for my kindle on my cell phone. He wrote back and said it was probably too powerful and could ruin the phone. He hasn't used the leash I bought for Danny but will.
I got a different meals on wheels. I asked for kosher and it was delicious but it was vegetarian and there was a lot of cheese which I love and like macaroni and cheese which I love but I think cheese is constipating and the food was higher in calories. I asked for non vegetarian food. I will see what I get on Tuesday when they deliver it frozen for the week. I bought oat bran pretzels which were delicious and might help lower my cholesterol.
I miss Kay and hope she is okay.

Good morning, Bobby,

It's nice to hear about Pudge and Abbey.

I hope that today goes well for you.


M

Thank you!I just bought a book on oxidized cholesterol. I have 60 days to return it. I don't know if it is a hoax or not.
Oxidized Cholesterol Strategy - One Food For Cholesterol Cure - Blue Heron Health News - YouTube

I have been up since three. I immediately took the antidepressant and put on Josh Groban. I started reading. I don't know but maybe all my health issues are interfering with the antidepressant. I guess I can't fight bipolar and health issues together. I think I already read the book I am reading now. I just seem to look forward to reading books and petting my cats. I have to force myself to take my medicine.
How to Reduce Cholesterol Oxidation - YouTube

Hi, Bobby,:)


I watched some of the youtube about Cholesterol Oxidation but
I couldn't understand it. I'm really sorry.

I do think it's good that you found something that can help you.


M

I watched the video...very interesting.

Of course they want us all to be vegetarians.
bizi:)

there are so many people in the world who have anemia. I hope the book I ordered doesn't say you have to be a vegetarian.
I slept practically all day. I have been so depressed that I was trying to escape it. I also needed the sleep since my sleep is rotten. I am bidding on a lot of books which I don't need and have no room for.
I just bought 41 books- two lots

today i think i got out of my depression. I kept on thinking that I am not alone ever and that God is always with me. That helped big time. I have to keep on reminding myself that over and over again. I think that can handle my being old and alone and suffer the ups and downs of being bipolar. I just finished a book I liked and think I had already read. I can't wait to start another book by Patricia Oliver.
I might buy a new cellphone from tracfone. I got my bill from consumercellular and instead of 15 dollars a month with taxes etc it was about 20 a month. I can buy a smartphone tracfone with a year's service all for either 59 dollars or 79 dollars. I am waiting to hear from Robert to see what he thinks.

Bobby

I think I caught up, and wanted to say I'm glad your enjoying
your kiwi.

Keep up the good work reading. I hope that sounds right.
Just meaning enjoy your reading.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thanks. I am back in the depression. I talked to Robert yesterday and I told him I bought the new cellphone with an additional year plus an addition 1200 minutes. I hope he helps me figure it out. I got a strange email from the seller saying they needed my signature and I didn't understand. I got totally stressed.
I don't know what to do. Whenever I do something new I get totally stressed and then start obsessing, The whole thing cost 141 dollars and I kept on telling myself I don't really need a cellphone except for emergencies and if I lost the 141 dollars it would be okay.My world is so tiny now. A lot of times it is so painful.
I got the new meals on wheels. No longer will I get the veggie burger six days a week and then throw it out. This will come every tuesday. They made a mistake and gave me more vegetarian meals which are quite good and I decided maybe it was better than meat meals because of my cholesterol so I won't ask to change.
I go to the new cardiologist at 4. I will show him my cholesterol numbers and say I don't want to take Praulent because more than half the reviews were negative. I will tell him I changed my diet and now have two kiwis a day.
He will think I am crazy but I am. I talked to Marci a lot yesterday. Her presence and wonderful attitude help my sanity twice a week when she comes.
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Real life, of course, is not quite so clear-cut. For example, a 2015 review of previous studies by two Brazilian researchers concluded that rumination is present in all bipolar phases and may reflect a hitch in the brain’s executive function (a set of processes relating to planning, organizing, and self-regulation)."

Don't sign anything unless you feel comfortable and understand it. Simply say no otherwise.

I am so glad to hear the meals on wheels are better. This is a big positive in your life as nutrition is critical for our well being.

You speak of my old friend "rumination" (or should I say enemy). I have to keep busy doing something physical, even just get up and walk laps in my room, when my mind starts to over think things. It is wasted precious energy. I understand the frustration. Planning, organizing and self-regulation are not my strong suits!

My world has become smaller also. Some by choice and otherwise beyond my control with being unable to work.

You are sounding like you are feeling better overall. I pray that your cardiology appointment goes well. Is this for a second opinion on the new Cholesterol med?

Take care

thank you. I called ebay and it just meant that when the phone is delivered it has to be signed for. I have a doorman.
It is for a second opinion but I can't take anymore side effects so hopefully through diet my cholesterol will benefit. I had a stroke three years ago so I have a hard time walking and doing exercises. I have a recumbent bike but last time I used it I had more aches and pains. I guess I should do it again but for three minutes instead of six.
bobby
I transferred my annuity into a money market a little while ago because I just couldn't take the stress but I still follow the market everyday

The bike sounds good. I would do it for one minute and work up from there. I watch the market as we both have our retirement in 401k and IRAs. I don't mess with much as they are long term investments. The last several days have been a roller coaster!

I am 75. a lot of people think the market should go a lot higher! It was just too much stress. I will take your suggestion.
Fondly
bobby

Bobby

I think working the one minute then working another minute if your
not to sore the next day is a good idea. Then doing the two minutes
for a while and then seeing if you can add another minute or half a minute
without it being too much.

Even if you can do the extra minute say 2 or three days a week, not in a row.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I went to Zeynep's cardiologist. He was so nice and probably in his late seventies. He knew all about the drug and explained it to me. He saw my blood tests and said that I should take the drug. He asked me a lot of questions and I had an ekg.
i will take the drug. He recommended 150 and the other cardiologist wrote a prescription for 75

I'm glad he explained it all to you. I think this might have
probably been what you needed. Are you maybe going
to change cardiologist now too.

Just curious.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Will you call the first cardiologist and request an increase to 150?
Is having the new cardiologist be your md? Is that an option?
It sounds like he spent time with you which I like and explained things to you.
bizi

I won't switch. I didn't ask him and he assumed I just wanted a consultation although he really checked me out. He also asked if I had the caratoid artery checked. I am having that done on the 26th and only he and the doctor prescribing the drug asked about it since the operation on it. I was really impressed at his thoroughness. Maybe I should have. He is in his late seventies I think and don't know when he is going to retire. I just had so much confidence in him. He is so special.
Much more than my other two. I might ask Zeynep what she thinks.
I emailed the one prescribing the medicine about the 150 dose. I see her on the 26th. My other cardiologist sent me to her.
bobby
Praluent Side Effects: Common, Severe, Long Term - Drugs.com

Have you not seen her then I am a little confused?

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I have an appt on aug 26. Nobody yet has answered my email. I am very hyper and tired. I am having a hard time concentrating so reading is difficult. I didn't sleep much.

I don't know what happened. My anxiety went through the roof. I was so distraught I didn't think of taking a klonopin. Instead I wound up making three watercress sandwiches and ate them bread mayonaisse and all. Then I went to sleep. I am so worried about the upcoming appointment with the cardiologist and wonder what she will say about raising the dose. I worry about the new cellphone and if I will be able to figure out. I just turned on the ac.
I can't take stress! It is so painful.
I am lost. also the new medication will help me stop thinking that I am going to get a heart attack or another stroke because my cholesterol is so high. That is shaking me up because I was getting used to the idea that I was going to have another stroke or heart attack and my days were numbered. Instead of feeling relieved my anxiety just sky rocketed.

I am sorry that you are stressing about things in general.
Have you tried the bike again? Exercise helps with your cholesterol levels.
how are your triglycerides?
bizi

the doctor said they wren't that bad. Last time I used the bike I really hurt. I have been so stressed I can't do anything right now. right now I have another stomach ache I think from gas. I think i have ibs

I left more bones and a toy for danny with the doorman. That should keep him busy for a while. I told Robert I would supply him with bones.
bobby

Bobby

I think technically part of the problem is that the anxiety is controlling
your stomach too. It also is what happens sometimes.

So just take some klonipin when you can and work on the anxiety.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Bobby. I agree the anxiety does have impact on our bowls. IBS is known to have increased symptoms during times of high stress. The brain body connection.

When my mind gets stuck with specific worry, I write the stressor down then say out loud "what is the worst thing that may happen?" Think about this for short time Then " what is the best thing that may happen?" Think about this longer. Then I imagine the out come to go right down the middle. For example I may have trouble at first with the cell phone but I will eventually figure it out because I am a strong intelligent woman. Plus I have a phone that will make my life more safe. Feed your brain reality, not what ifs. Thinking about negative "What ifs" Is wasting your precious energy. It is not easy, I understand.

My mother had severe depression, anxiety and agoraphobia. I was a support and tried to help her and worry my anxiety may get out of hand so I jump on it at the first indication of it getting out of control. It is always there but I can tap it down with the above example.

My dog is obsessed with tennis balls and will play fetch until she drops. We took her to a park with a court and she charged to the tennis court trying to scoop up all the loose balls. It was so funny.

Take care

thank you so much for your excellent advice. I will try it. I used to be very bright but after my stroke I suffered brain damage and I get so frustrated and negative when I have trouble figuring out things.
so funny about your dog. I loved the image.
I heard about raising the dosage to 150. The np said that is what they usually start the patient on and will see if my insurance cooperates.
I just heard from Robert. He said he will help me with the tracfone He was thrilled that I got Danny who is an aggressive chewer more bones and a toy.
I will read your advice again and again.
thank you again.fondly
bobby
I do tend to think the worse but the new medication I am going to take by injection lowers your bad cholesterol big time. Robert is a genius.
I tried the kava kava this morning but felt nothing. My anxiety is still quite high.
I will take an extra klonopin.