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Have a good day Bobby.
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the volunteer came over from Dorot. This is his third time.. Dorot made a mistake and didn't have me listed. He corrected it and said he wanted to visit me. He is so unusual-He has been taking torah classes for 15 years and goes to services every week. He gave me the url for his temple where I can listen to the sermons. He said I could go to the Torah classes free but I really can't afford the cab fare. He saw how difficult it was for me to move. Guess what? HE DOESN'T BELIEVE IN GOD. I finally said something must have happened to you when yo were little. He said his mother died suddenly at 38 when he was 11 and his father remarried two years later. I told him he must be so angry at God. I talked about creation and how could he explain all the beautiful nature etc and that it couldn't be an accident.He said it was a good point and he has heard before.
He said let's do some Torah. For over 1/2 hour he mostly talked about parts of the Torah.From class I was familiar what we discussed. It was really neat and I was envious of his being able to go once a week and do Torah. I have my phone class for about six or eight weeks. In the beginning I talked about my mania. He brought food, I wound up having turkey! love bobby discovering procol harum |
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I am so happy for you to have him and faith in your life. love bizi |
thank you so very much! the medicine is really working big time. I don't feel hyper and I don't feel manic except when I have the compulsion to spend or eat if I have something good in the apartment to eat.
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I hope you can work on getting better sleep.
I love elton john! love you bizi:hug: |
elton john is a genius. right now sacrifice is my favorite song. right now I am listening to Phil Collins. I subscribe to the premium youtube so it can play for so long.
I took a nap earlier today after I ate. now my mind is very active. I am just listening to music and thinking with the lights out. I had a thought that might help suri about prayer so I just sent her an email. It could have been manic.ugh love bobby |
another two pounds up. I will try harder.
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I remember how he had came last month was it and told you he would be back. I am so glad he came back and brought turkey of all things. It sounds like you had thanksgiving early. That is perfect even if its not on thursday. Its kind of like he realized you were feeling like you weren't going to get any or have anyone to be thankful with. Now you have someone to be thankful for. Along with the others. Donna :hug::grouphug: |
dorot provided the food. he corrected their mistake. dorot might provide something for passover so hopely i swill see him then.i have his email now.
I think you are thinking of the young pastor who came this past month and said he would come next month. He is affiliated with dorot also. A real connection was made between him and me. He is the only other person I met who at one time while he was young up to 25 was afraid of life and death. that happened to me when i had my explosion at 35 and knew I had to gain faith. I also have a connection with the other fellow too. fondly bobby |
real connections to people: Priceless!
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i still can't believe it. blessed
love bobby listening to phil collins |
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The whole thing is so neat. And I agree with Bizi, Priceless. Now you have two from Dorot that really want to come and see you. That is so neat and fantastic. Donna :hug::grouphug: |
before they sent me two different rabbis who were students. they were both fantastic but the male rabbi had such a gift of warmth -he made me feel so incredible. He got a position in canada. it is a great organization and I guess attracts great people.
i lost a pound. I cleared out a lot of stuff like cat food that the cats couldn't eat etc and an old computer and scratching post. I have a temper now and don't want to control it. I finally raised my voice at an amazon, he just wasted my time and didn't know what he was doing. at least I didn't swear at him. Yesterday I finally got angry at marci's laughing, she laughs at everything. when I told her about my weigh gain and terror about over eating, she laughed. I finally raised my voice and said you think that is funny or is it a nervous laugh. she said it wasn't a nervous laugh. I said you think it is funny with all my health problems that it is killing me. she said she usually laughs at everything. later she said I was to live to 100. I think she realized how upset she made me. I am still exhausted but I think I got six hours of sleep. |
I hope you have a good day bobby!
(((((((HUGS))))))) bizi:grouphug: |
i have that feeling of well being. I am glad I had those two outbursts. I would have stored the anger otherwise. In the review I called him a moron.
I am still really tired. I just read a goldman sachs comment that the market should keep on going up. It is sort of frustrating to be out of it now and into a money market but I can't take the stress. love bobby |
I am glad that you have a sense of well being.
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it is really wonderful!
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I think getting mad at Marci is good for you both. Even if Marci doesn't seem to realize you are or why. I think then you start to take action against how she treats you and to stand up for your self. You need that. Donna :hug::grouphug: |
marci treated me really well today. we ever sort of danced at the end. I just stayed in one place because of my balance and weakness in my legs. It was still fun. I was dizzy yesterday morning so I am taking the l am the lower dose of medicine.
I spoke with my best friend Suri yesterday. Her test scores came out worse. She was so upset and I couldn;t make her feel better. She definitely doesn't want to die and no way has she made peace with the prospect. We don't talk at all about it but she knows me and knows if she wants to express her feelings she can. She has a therapist who went through a lot of personal suffering and suri really likes her. Her doctor help out her hand to her and will try to find a clinical trial from mall over the world. I still have the sense of well being and no anxiety.,just sadness over Suri. I have been tired. |
I am sorry about suri, you are a good friend to her.
((((HUGS)))))) love bizi |
Sending you and Suri some hugs.
Donna :hug::grouphug: |
haven't heard from cecilia in over a week.going out with my other neighbort to brunch on sunday at 1. emailed alice to see if we could get together but not talk about suri. we all worked at the library as programmers -she wrote yes
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I am glad that you are going out with alice.
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i got about 2 hours of sleep..at first was depressed but as soon as I started doing something I was fine...been listening to music and reading,. abby fell down off a high cabinet-somehow she knocked off her little pan she often sleeps in. she hid under the bed so at first i couldn't see if she were hurt. i called treats and she came out and was fine. My friend's year and a 1/2 wire hair terrier is eating her furniture. She is taking chunks of wood. Joyce is taking Piper to the vet's. It is really dangerous and she has tried all sorts of things but none have worked.
Happy Thanksgiving! love bobby |
i think fanapt is causing my dizziness but I don't want to stop taking it.
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i just ordered an antihistimine that supposedly helps dizziness. in a half an hour I will take my blood pressure. Hope it isn't that and am scared. pulse rate very high 117
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I am sorry you only slept 2 hours.
I guess I did not know that you were having dizzyness. What are you doing today? (((((HUGSand love)))))) bizi |
robert is coming over at five to put my new chair together and to take my pulse and blood pressure. the machine is also saying I have an irregular heartbeat. Obviously I am terrified
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I think I should go to my heart doctor. I don't know how long it takes to see him.
Check with your doctor immediately if any of the following side effects occur while taking iloperidone: More common Fast, pounding, or irregular heartbeat or pulse that is the medicine so i guess i call my psychiatrist on friday. I am so upset because it really works. I will stop taking it now, at least I had a few weeks of knowing what it is like to be normal. irregular heart rhythm. Antipsychotics like Fanapt may increase the risk for a heart rhythm problem that can cause sudden death. To lessen the danger, don't combine Fanapt with any of the following drugs: erythromycin, fluoxetine, fluvoxamine, moxifloxacin, paroxetine, pimozide, or other antipsychotic medications, such as chlorpromazine and thioridazine. |
I just sent an email to my pdoc and said I stopped taking the medication that worked so well I knew what it was like to feel normal. I told him the symptoms.
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Please forgive me bobby but almost all antipsychotics have that warning or some other really scary sounding warning. geodon can cause sudden death too. I have taken it for years and am not concerned.
Wasn't your heart rate elevated before taking your new med? bizi |
I always had a fast pulse but not an irregular heartbeat or dizziness. What you wrote was interesting.
Hope your thanksgiving is going well! love bobby |
just took my bp and my pulse was 127. I am going to call my cardiologist this morning to see when I can get an appt.
I slept for over 7 hours last night. Yesterday when Robert came over to help with my bp machine i as usual spent my time with danny. He made my Thanksgiving. At the end he licked me a few times. It was so wonderful! He finally acknowledged me and this time didn't try to grab my wrist. I am not depressed. I think the medicine is still in my system. I bought another kindle yesterday. I am not sure where the other one is, |
just got an email from the doctor. He said we could try to lower the dosage or try another medication. I have an appt. with him on the fifth.
I don't know what to do. I think I will try lowering the dosage and see if I get dizzy again. It is such a fantastic drug.. |
i am really manic. ordered 18 bottles of wine. already have a lot, i just called them to cancel. The young woman was very understanding. I told her I wa manic and have a lot of bottles already. She said she understood.
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am seeing my cardiologist next wed at 9
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I wish you could see your cardiologist sooner.
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I thought i was pretty lucky to see him that soon. I told the assistant the symptoms. I am not taking anymore of fanapt. I have been in bed most of today napping.
Robert said he might come over and put together the chair. I am having dinner tomorrow night with Alice! love bobby |
glad that you get to spend time with Alice.
Glad that Robert is going to put together your chair. He is such a good friend to you. ((((((HUGS)))))) bizi |
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I'm wondering if maybe because your maniac if your pulse is higher. I honestly don't know but it would make sense to me for it too be. Sense you are more active. I also think you and your psychiatrist need to figure out how to get you back down off the maniac side. Yes, I honestly know you are trying. But I think he needs to know how bad your doing with this part. Donna :hug::grouphug: |
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