have you ever tried cognitive behavior therapy on your self?
I am not quite such of what it entails but CBT has helped alot of folks.
I am sorry that you wished you were dead.
love bizi

I really think it is chemical. right now. i have two therapists. when i get really happy i crash. i go to the other extreme.
yesterday i had a stomach ache all day. i read a book.
love
bobby

i am so sad that i won't see jose anymore. i can't walk up the four flights of stairs. i hardly see anybody. i guess it happens to a lot of older people without family and who lost friends. mix it with bipolar depression ugh

(((((((HUGS)))))))
love you bizi

robert came over to pick up some food for danny. he took a couple of pictures of pudge.he said don't hesitate to ask for help. joyce wanted to see her groomed.
i bought some more books. i am reading siddatha by hesse and just bought two more of his books. i bought four more gayle buck's books.

yesterday i fell again and hurt my other foot. it is so painful. i still have fast reflexes and the doorbell started ringing a lot so i thought it was an emergency.
i got off the chair too fast and took a bad fall. somebody was just bringing up a food delivery.. i got so f..king angry and i still feel rage. i called the doorman and said from now on call before somebody comes up. i told him i really
hurt myself.
my teeth finally started to stop hurting after the cleaning.
love
bobby

I am so sorry you fell again.
they kept ringing the door bell sigh
yes it sounded like an emergency.

Good of you to call the door man in
future for them to call you. I hope he
passes that info along to other door man.

I am glad that your teeth stopped hurting

after the cleaning that is good.
love

bizi

my teeth hurt today. my legs hurt today. i have to hold on to tables or walls to walk.. i feel beaten up. i forgot if i mentioned i am now allergic to aby. i keep on wondering if the vaccine had anything to do with this new development.
i decided i won't open the door if i don't get a call first from downstairs.
i forgot that my rage took away my depression lol
love
bobby

I thought your teeth stopped hurting you from this mornings post.I am sorry that they are still hurting you now.

i am so stressed out and depressed. yesterday my tooth bothered me most of the day. even though i just went to the dentist and had xrays i bet he is going to have to pull it and then give me new bottom dentures. it will cost a fortune. last time he charged me 300 dollars for a cleaning and xrays.
i woke up nauseated. i think it is my ibs. it has really been bothering me. i feel like a war zone. i took a bath and was terrified. because of my recent injury i was afraid i might not be able to get out.
i had trouble talking with aaron yesterday. i just didn't feel well. i will try to read a new book today the giver and maybe have something to say.
love
bobby