Hi,
I appreciate your replies.
It's probably normal that when someone dies, people re-mourn the others who have died too. My mother is going through a lot of mourning.

When she does that she gets protective about family secrets -- some are about dark and ugly things that even now she says never happened -- others are harmless and common knowledge but not allowed to be discussed.
Did I tell you my mom is a total nutcase and that sometimes I am amazed that my siblings and I are more or less functioning on an almost normal level every few days???????!!!!!!!!!

And it is confusing to keep track of the freaking secrets because the family is huge and who the heck can keep track of who knows which secret and who doesn't??

Today I started to feel sorry for the people in the vehicles who hit my cousin. It wasn't their fault he walked out into traffic.
Crap. That probably messed up their day too.

I cried a lot. Then hubby drove to the park and I walked while he jogged. The exercise helped.


Mari