Hi everyone, I have been suffering with depression for a very long time. I can remember way back in childhood years coming home from school and crying. Now over the past year or so my depression has gotten the worst that it has ever been. I am in counseling and see a psych. who just recently within the last 2 weeks put me on Welbutrin. At first I thought It was helping a little and then a couple of days ago I had a doctor's appointment about possible hormonal issues (I even had the results showing I had low female hormones) and she told me that I was dealing with psychological issues and that she wasn't sigmind freud to help me figure them out. So there went the help the Welbutrin I thought was giving me. I have been a complete mess the last two days after seeing her, not only because of what she said, but also that i have been in such a dark place for the last year and I feel utterly alone. I can't hold down employment, I can barely leave the house, I cry daily, and the friends I thought I had never contact me, even after I make the hour trip to go down and visit them. Does anyone ever get racing thoughts at night about past events, or what they're going to do in the future if this never goes away? I have been getting these thoughts nightly for the last year. I also get the suicidal thoughts as well, not that I would ever act on them but they are just always there. I was diagnosed just recently with clinical depression, has anyone had any luck with the right medication to get out of this state of mind? I can't say my counselor is much help either, somedays she tells me to just go out and do it all, the next day she asks me if I can even drive? No cognitive therapy or any approach to help get rid of these negative thoughts, her response to everything is just go do it (get a job, go to school, ect...)..Anyway sorry I babbled on for so long, sometimes I just need to vent to anyone that would listen...Thanks for your time