It is almost 4 in afternoon here and you have been in my thoughts and I sent/ said prayers for you like 5 times today.I know you will be tired and have huge unbareable head ache so PLEASE REST and just know that we are all keeping you tight in our prayers thoughts and healing vibs...and we send hugs !
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You are so full of courage and determination you give me inspiration and strength to keep going threw my sad depressing times and I bet others get the same thing.You are a BLESSING DENISE!!! So take things slow and easy rest relax and WHEN YOU feel like it and are able .... post . LOVE YOU!!!!
PEACE
BMW

Denise
 

Burntmarshmallow is so right. Take it slow, and easy. We are going to wait for you to post when you have the energy.

You might have a splitting headache now. Please let us know. Are you OK?

We all love ya,and are with you in spirit.

Please lean on us. We are here for you. BF:hug::hug::hug::grouphug:

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May God fill you with loving strength while you rest. Thank you God.
Know that your in our prayers and we are here when you are able to let us know how you are feeling. Make sure your eatting healthy and getting your rest. Your doing great even though you feel so yulk soon that will all change for the better I know it will.... because I and WE pray for you all the time.
Many blessings on you and yours Denise. :hug::grouphug:
PEACE
BMW

it is nice to hear that i may be inspiration to other people fridays treatment didnt go so well i was really sick i was in bad shape i am in bad shape today i dont know what to do my head just doesnt feel right i have another treatment tomorrow at 10 am and it is my birthday tomorrow so that should be a really good birthday well yous are alll in my dreams and prayers also love yas:grouphug:

I will not attempt to say Happy Birthday or wish you a happy birthday because I know that is a pretty dumb thing to do/say.:(
When you said it is your birthday tomorrow made me think that sometimes a birthday echoes the day we came into this world. It is a painful wet yucky traumatic stressful scary mess. It is the end of living inside a womb. Living inside a bubble of warmth comfort security and we begin living out side breathing air and feeling touches and hearing sounds more clearly. All of which are new and strange and scary.

I think that is what yours will resemble. Like you are in a transition that’s kind of like when we are born. But in the days and weeks after we are born we adjust and begin either by instinct or learning to adapt and deal with things. We cry, we even cry differently for different reasons we smile we start to coo and make baby sounds. we learn we have hands then we learn how to use them...Try to think of tomorrow as another step in adapting another step in getting better another step in growing and healing and another step closer to the sunshine and happiness.

That sounds like a lot of steps but tomorrow is just one step. a step in between .. Between all the steps you have taken so far. And there have been MANY so far. And you have taken them one by one. You’ve shown the world and God how courageous and brave and strong and persistent and caring and loving and smart considerate you really are. :hug: and that’s just naming a few things. Keep steady keep putting forth your courage your strength your trust and belief In Yourself in God in the World in your Family and in Life.

Remember to control your breathing even if you have to make your mind scream loudly slow breath in slow breath out. And if you can find some boost shakes. Health drinks maybe try them instead of eating food for your belly. Can find them in the grocery store by the cheese and milk and yogurt. If not ask I am sure the grocery store has them.
Dose lightly massaging your forehead and temple bother you after? Maybe a warm cloth might help with headache?

Of course the suggestion B.F. made about not having it tomorrow would be good. I bet they wont :(
They probably don’t want to miss a treatment and then have to do more or longer to make up for missing one. Make sure you are telling them how badly your head and body feel. Tell then every time you go. Tell them how sick your are, let them know all these things. What you think and feel are importion and vital to how they can help you better.

This reply is way to long and will probably make your head ache worse but please know we are here. We love you. We believe in you. we are there in spirit and thought with you. We are proud and amazed by the things you have done and are doing. We know this is going to be hard but we know you are brave and can do this.:hug::grouphug: We are sending God our prayers for and about you, your family your treatments your tomorrows. May God be with you healing you and BLESSINGS YOU.
Always close in my heart prayers and thoughts you are Denise. And I know I am not alone.:grouphug:
Peace
BMW

well yes my head does hurt really bad again i told the drs and they said that they would give me something for the nausa and for the headache well they did and i was there even longer because the medicine has to wear off some before you can leave than i came home and slept i just woke up so i slept the day away some birthday i have atleast 3 more treatments left and they could do anywhere up to another 9 so i guess we will see how it goes well i am really sick so i am going to lay down but wanted to thank yous for all your warm wishes and support love yas take care:hug::grouphug:

I am not having a good day the last few days but i wanted to post and say I think it is good the doc is giving you something for the pain and the nausea.
AND I THINK YOU ARE SEVERLY BRAVE AND COURAGIOUS ! I ADMIRE you more then you can know.
Dont look at the big picture and how many treatments are left or how many they may do..Just look at ONE DAY AT A TIME.one step at a time. YOUR DOING GREAT DENISE! Your probly more then half way to being done..so look at that and sleep ,rest and eat healthy and keep taking steps ..one at a time. Luv ya my friend.:hug:
PEACE
BMW

Computor problems
 

I'm going to get another computer. BF:hug:

Denise
 

Are you OK? My computer took a hit,and I've been offline for almost a week. .It happened suddenly. What a surprise!

It's working again. How are you? Are the treatments working? How do you feel. I've worried that you thought that I left. I didn't. Just technical difficulties. BF

I too am thinking of you and wondering how things are and HOW YOU ARE.
Are you starting to notice any small positive changes ..I meen besides the sick feeling , headaches and tiredness. Today is thursday and your day to rest so i am praying you rest and can get on here and say hi to us. always remember that all of us are holding you in our prayers hearts and in positive thoughts. we know that your going to feel better soon!! Your a perfect example of courage Denise even if you dont think you are. we can see diffrent and know you ARE!
and we send lots and lots of gentle hugs :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:
Love you. :grouphug:
PEACE
BMW