Hi Denise
 

It's important to do what the doctor says,especially at this time. It may be crucial in the timing of these treatments. Burntmarshmallow knows more about these treatments,and she say's if you continue,you will start feeling better soon.

Please be patient with the doctors,and treatments. It sounds like the side affects are unpleasant,but please be patient,and you will endure.

I also am aggravated with Social Security Disability. I hear that there is a overload in the system. It's trying my patience also. They deny everyone two times I hear. I too would rather work. Work brings life in me. It's a part of me.

Please continue with your treatments. Please don't give up. Don't be discouraged,but be determined. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Denise
 

Are you OK today? I know it's difficult trying to cope. Hang in there. BF

Denise
 

You are well loved. BF (Steve)

i had another treatment today and they feel as though i am not improving so they are going to have a meeting to discuss what the next step is going to be ssi i feel doesnt give it to people who really need it i worked for years and now i am sick and need help and they wont :hug:

Denise
 

Please hang tough. There is a solution. It takes time. You can be helped...Know this...There is help for you. Keep reaching out for help,and you will be helped. Keep Knocking,and the door will be opened.

You are brave,and have endured much. Now keep on this path with the doctors,so they can find something that will help you,and something will.

Please take small steps as these doctors make there plans on what to do. Its not over. It's never over. I believe your going to get help. I expect to hear something soon. I don't know how soon,but soon indeed. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Denise
 

I know what you mean about Social Security Disability. They don't care about us. I've been waiting for a year,and a half. Now I have a lawyer. It's sade. With me, I'm on the edge of financial hardship. I'm paying my bills with my 401K money. It was heavily taxed when I withdrew it. It's not fair.
I hope my lawyer helps. They make you wait,and wait. The emotional hardship is bad enough. Now I'm on the edge of going completely broke down to my last cent. I'm sorry to have to mention this. They are doing this to most every one I hear.:(

Denise
 

Are you OK? BF:hug:

i am not doing well the treatments are taking everything out of me i am sick and exhausted i feel like they are frying my brain and i cant even think anymore i think i am going to give up if i do dont ever forget me :grouphug:

Denise. Don't give up!!!
 

Denise. Don't give up. There must be a plan B. You are not the only one who has this affiction. I have tons of sympathy for you. It's been a tuff thing that you are going through,but as long as you are reaching out,and going forward,they will find something that will help you.

It sounds unpleasant what you have been through,but they are trying to treat you. BurntMarshmallow knows more about this treatment. I'm going to send a message to her. She said you are going to feel better soon if you keep getting the treatments. I'm going to try to reach her.

Please don't quit. There is help for you. Don't give up. There are many other things that they can do. It's only been a short time. These things take time to change. They know what to do if those particular treatments don't work. They can get other specialists. I know that life right now is painful for you,but don't give up. As long as you try to get help,there will be people trying to help you. I would not forget you,but please don't choose to stop. The chose is yours. Please elect to keep going.

You can always get a second opinion. You can seek out new doctors,and talk to them about the treatments that you have had,and they can try something else. As long as you step forward to get help,someone,or group will come up with the right treatment,or combination of treatments. There is help for you.

Don't stop now. You are probably so close to the right treatment,and answer that will help you. My heart goes out to you. I care about you,I really do. I know that this illness is treatable,but you must face this problem,and be determined to see it through. I love you. BF:hug::hug::hug:

denise, you keep posting for a reason. you haven't given up. :hug:

it would be better for you to post on a forum where people understand, like the sos forum. there are more people there to help support you. it's busier than the depression forum.

there are others on the forum who have had ect's. but staying on one thread here, you won't find them, or them you.

sos, survivors of suicide, isn't just for people left behind or for those who have tried and failed, but also for people like you, who are having those horrible painful thoughts.

no matter what denise, you have to keep those kids as a priority and what suicide would do to them. you can get through this. not just for yourself, but for them.

:hug: