I was put on paxil in the past, it's hard to say if it really helped or not, but the doctors eventually took me off it. After moving to Texas everything has become worse, and now they have me on 1mg Clonazepam. They help me enjoy life a bit more, but the thought of having to swallow pills the rest of my life scares me to death. I have friends who have taken the same things I have, and they can no longer function as a human without them. I can function, I can put on a pretty face no matter what the pain is inside me, or confusion. I have no insurance either, so being able to afford any kind of medication is killing me. I'd love to seek out other kinds of therapy, I just wouldn't know how to pay for such things, as I have other issues regarding my finances as well.

Thanks for being the lone responder, I've been trying to get the ball rolling it just takes so much more than what I have to offer.

So I take it one day at a time.