Thanks Tkirk

MS has strengthened my soul, not my body, but my soul. It has taught me alot. I've learned patience. and optimism.

I've read that when theres an area a message cant get through, that the body rewires that section so it can travel a different route. Thats amazing.

I need to start taking care of my soul, and watch my self thoughts. As those thoughts are whats feeding the body.. I forget sometimes and spiral into a slew of negative, hateful thoughts, and that's just not right.


SallyC-- I am so sorry to hear of the same situation for your cousin.. I wish they would've known we were there for them.. Maybe they did and just didn't feel they could come out of the dark hole they had fallen into. From this horrible experience, we learn to come together. At least I hope. Things are very rough and jagged right now. It's time for the anger part of mourning to kick in.

I am going over to their house today to hang with his brother and try to get my aunt out of her room and eat something. I cant stop worrying about them, especially her mental/physical health.

I just wish all the pain to go away.

Thank you all for the support. It lightens my heart a lil bit and thats really what I need right now

When I get where I’m going…
on the far side of the sky;
the first thing that I’m going to do
is spread my wings and fly.
I’m going to land beside a lion
and run my fingers through his mane.
Or I might find out what it’s like
to ride a drop of rain.
When I get where I’m going,
there’ll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years.
And I’ll leave my heart wide open;
I will love and have no fear.
When I get where I’m going,
don’t cry for me down here.

I had a buddy of mine do it to himself *edit*

*edit*I literally cried for days after I heard the news and it was because of thinking of just how someone could go through with it....so much despair and hopelessness that nothing else matters except getting rid of the mental pain.
I don't condemn anyone who commits suicide....they can't help it as much as we, with MS, can help it.

I keep thinking to myself how far and despaired one must go to actually go through with a suicide and I can't even grasp how far down you have to go...it makes me shocked. Even I, dealing with this crappy disease and it's crap it does to me, no GF or doing the job I loved doing(construction) and basically seeing a lot of what I worked for, go bye bye. Even I am not even close to even thinking about killing myself. I love my life despite this crap, I have good support, people smile at me instead of think of me as disgusting I ride my bike, I can still walk, I am SO glad to know more of the MS community and how close knit they are and most of all.....I have lots of hope and will not give up....I owe it to the friends and my family for this attitude, without them, I'd be down that dark road myself I suspect.

With Tim(my buddy) no one knew how far down he went and they couldn't be there for him....I always wished he would of gave in and reached out to someone, because sometimes a shoulder to lend, is all that it is needed to bring someone back out of the darkness. He just needed to reach out, but he didn't... RIP, my friend.

Deepest sympathy to all who have lost someone to suicide.

I do just need to intervene here and gently remind that we actually have a very specific guideline about suicidal discussion, asking that it be very limited (no graphic descriptions or other triggering info) and that it preferably be kept to the special forum we have http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html
Even there, although open discussion is allowed, we ask that members please be very sensitive, and not post graphic/triggering details.

Thanks for understanding

Awww crap! I try to keep from breaking the rules(sometimes hard to do lol) sorry bout that.... Ok I got it....thanks.

AnyDee....I totally lost a post due to you, due to a login time out....it was that long of a post... I don't feel like re doing it. gah I hate that when it happens.

This is so beautiful! Chills and tears! I needed to read this so very very much!!

It's by country singer BRAD PAISLEY -- song LYRICS
"When I Get Where I'm Going"
(feat. Dolly Parton)

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/bradp...reimgoing.html


*song lyrics might be copyrighted, so a link to the source is always a good idea*