Ms. Acorn, I've noticed that your moodometer says, "sad". Care to elucidate???


*grabbing a chair*

Thanks, AMN, hope it is a comfy chair. I was going to change my mood today, but couldn't decide on another. Are you doing better?, it's been a rough week/month all around.

I've decided to leave my boyfriend of 3 years. He is who I moved to Denver to be with. I have realized I cannot afford to live out here in the sunshine and the mountains in the distance, and it breaks my heart. The cost of living out here is unbelievable.

So, I must go back to Ohio and my family. I'm not a failure (keep telling myself). I grew so much out here, and I'm not just talking my waistline. :o

That's it in a nutshell (or an acorn). I'm so proud of myself for making the move and giving this a shot. And I'm devistated that I can't take the weather and views back east.

Are you still there? If so, I want to thank you for your concern and if you ask, I'll give you more details. I just don't want to bum everyone out at once. :D

:hug: :Thanx: :hug:

Sure, Beth, I'm here and this is MY thread that asked HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Today, you tell me how are you. This is how it works.

Are you certain that returning to OH is your only alternative?

Please continue. I'm listening.

Oh my gosh! Has anyone else noticed that this thread has had over 18k views!!?!?!?!?!?? What the heck????:yikes:

Oh my goodness, Beth..:( I am sorry that this has happened. I don't know all the reasons that you are making this decision, but, since you are, then it must be right for you.

The interuption of a relationship is always sad and am sorry, but I wish you the best of everything.:hug:

I'm here in Ohio...somewhere...:D

I think everyone checks into this thread before taking a breath, in the morning..LOL! This is where it's happening.:D

ROTFLOL!! How pitiful.

I believe this is the best all around choice (except for weather). I talked to my one sister who's spare room I stayed in. She said that her husband and she were recently talking and wondering if I would come back. :thud: I didn't see that coming. I offered her a $200 a month and before I paid her nothing and had a p/t job. My b-i-l lost his job in IT and was unemployed for a year. Recently he got a job installing awnings or something, so I know money is tight.

The downside is she's been using the whole room as a closet and joked that I could sleep next door at our dad's house and live at hers during the day. :)

I sold my car to move here, so transportation may take some time. Her ex just fired his office staff, and I used to work there, so a p/t job is a possibility. His business is in the same building as her business.

My great MS doc at CCF Mellen center, my awesome dentist and eye doc are still there.

The negatives are living in a house with smokers and drinkers. The usual chaos that having family in the same city involves. I have missed the shar pei pups, but not the responsibility of them.

I don't like the depressed economy in OH, or the racial tensions. Out here everyone gets along and despite the housing market dropping the economy is fine here. OH weather sucks and the humidity is something I've not had to deal with here.

On the plus side I can celebrate holidays again, not even birthdays were acknowledged here. I've got one coming up soon enough.

I've considered just renting a room somewhere out here. Darts is sw D, where I am. MS doc is nw D, 40 min drive away and no car. Then there is all the expenses like rent, food, utilities.

I guess that is all for now. Any comments?

Well, if you're comfortable with the change, then you need to do what's best for you. Rooming with your sis might not be all that great, but would it be indefinite?

Do you have an income out there? If you're on SSDI there are options available to you.

I know it's sickening expensive out there, but there are concessions for the disabled.

I know you will do what is best. (((hugs)))

I'm not sure how it will be living with my family again. I know for sure I am not the same quiet, pretend I'm invisible, I don't deserve to be treated well person, I used to be. So, I may have to find my own place.

I don't work out here. Boyfriend didn't want me too because the wear and tear on the car would be greater then the income earned. He wanted me to get mentally healthy. So I'm getting better, and can't live with him anymore. Go figure.

I can always come back here, if things don't work out. I've got friends from darts. And a second family out here and in The Springs. When they found out I was from OH I was immediately accepted and they are all teriffic. The thing is the dart community is close and traveling in the same circles as soon to be ex-bf would be so uncomfortable now. Especially since he's got 15 years more time out here. Given time it would be easier. Can you tell I like to do things the easy way.

I talked to my dad tonight. He is supportive. Just said "I know you've been unhappy for a while, don't know all the details". He thought coming home was a good idea. I also talked to two of my friends from OH and NJ and they are supportive too.

I'm having trouble keeping quiet. I want to tell him so I don't feel like I keeping a secret and blindsiding him, like I am. :( I'm worn out, drained. All done yapping for now. :hug:

Okay, Beth, it looks like you've given the decision a lot of thought and you have applied the guidance offered by your trusted advisors.

When you're ready, feel free to tell us how you feel about the decision.:)

Today is lovely in MI, it was 54° when I woke up, sunny, but no breeze. It is now 65° and the humidity feels like it's going up. But, the coffee's good, the critters are busy and 14 turkeys are doing their morning rounds through my yard.

Today my big objectives are errands and deskwork with a little outdoor time. Woo hoo, my life is way too exciting!

I just woke up wondering if this is the right decision. I'm sure it is just my devils advocate side always arguing both sides, so much so, I paralyze myself with indecision. I'm notorious for letting life sweep me up and being disappointed with the results.

I'm so ready to tell him, that I'm leaving. I hate feeling like I am keeping alive hope for him. :( After he knows, I can start going through my stuff openly. I can talk to friends in the dart community that know us both. I'm the only one he brought into the world of darts, by my request. So everyone who knows me connects me to him.

What to do, what to do?:confused:

Sounds like an exciting day. My objective today is to have coffee on the deck with my dog, Holly, no arguments today with anyone. And go see a movie.

Well...coffee was great. Holly had a good time chasing the ball. So far no arguments. And we went to see Ratatouille. :D

If you haven't seen that movie - GO SEE IT!!! It's hilarious!

Well, I was on a mission and the mission was a bust! I was looking for two things and no one had what I wanted. Serves me right for going to Gander Mt. and ****'s... strictly cosmetics when it comes to real gear.

Our EMS closed and I'm lost without them. Now I have to go to our local guys and listen for 45 minutes to their tall tales about hunting/fishing experiences when the Edsel was still on the road. bleah.

Yeah, I'm a regular sweetie tonight.:rain:

EDITED TO ADD: LMAO!!!!!! the name of the sporting goods store that got blotted is the four letter nikname for Richard! That is too oooo funny!!!!!! I feel much better now!

LMAO! so you can't say D I C K ' s? Tooo funny.

What if your name is D i c k? what do you do?

Well...big day! Got the big landscaping job and we start on Wednesday! Well, the crew does. I go to Portland. And we got another little one day job, today, too, that will start after the big job! I am sooo excited!

I will take lots of pictures! Yeehaw!!!!

Good deal on the jobs, FG!

My neighbor's name is **** but I call him, "Whata".

Yeah for you FG!! Yes, we want pics... Wish I had plans to do something..

Hey AMN?? You wanna get banned here, just like you did from HB's???

Yep! Yeah FG! You can plant it! Yeah!

AMN banned from here? Don't listen to the pip-squeak! (DM)

Today I am fine.

Tomorrow on the other hand............

I have to go back to work already.:Sigh:

Man, where did summer go?:Noooo:

We had one week here and the rest was rain.:rain:

I don't wanna go!!!!:Bawling:

I will be around to check on you all!:Wave-Hello:

Hugs to you all!:grouphug:

Taffy

I love a good band! I haven't been to a concert in almost a year!




Buck up, Flappy ole girl, you'd be bored out of your gourd if you didn't have your kiddies in the classroom!

*hanging of Taffy's pantleg* NOOOO... don't go Taffy! :Sob:

Hey,"SOMEBODY'S been working OUT!! :Blush2:

I'm feeling good today. Everything is good right now and I want it to last! :) Work is going well, school starts Friday, family is doing well, and the weather is starting to cool off! I have fun things coming up the next two weekends too. Life is good. :D

AWWW Wiz~ You have such a great attitude. I want to rub elbows w/you someday, so some of that rubs off on me. Maybe if I find a lamp and rub it real hard, I'll get my wish.. :D


Now, where did I leave that magic lamp??

*ripping cord from wall... this table lamp will do*

(somebody needs to dust around here!!!)

That is so good to know, Wiz, good news is always such a welcome retreat from the daily grind. You have got the magic bullet with that Ty and it rocks!:)

Uh, dm, that's not a lamp, it's an Ionic Breeze.

Wiz

It's so good to see you posting positive stuff! Yeah!

Watch out for DM's carrying magic lamps - or DM's under lamp shades! I think she's been sneaking the Jager! :D

I did something drastic last night. Time for a change...

I got my hair CUT...so what you all say...she has short hair. Well, I have been letting the back of my hair grow. It was down past my shoulders. It's GONE. All gone. Yeah! H took a look at me when I got home...hmmm, he says. That's all. :p

And, I have been lax with getting my hair colored...yep...I am blonde, but lots of gray has been creeping in so as of last night...the gray is gone and I am my ol' blonde self again!

Yippee yay!

Small changes, getting ME back again! Baby steps. :)

P.S. I was completely sober when I did this!

I sooo know what you mean!!! Friday was my "hair" day... cut off a couple inches, went for a new color... I truly believe that having someone wash &dry your hair puts a whole new spin on life.

I now regularly ('bout every other week) go in for just that (a wash &dry)... it's cheaper than a therapist....

Bethany

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It's a funny thing about life; if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it.

I love your siggy line, Bethany. Maybe if I quit trying to accept MS, which is truly NOT the best, then it would just vanish.:p

My DD did that...she is in total MS remission (no symptoms). I thinks it's the LDN, but she thinks, "It's Mind over Matter. She keeps taking the LDN for insurance, but doesn't think it's doing anything. To her, the MS is no longer there.:confused: As her Mama, I hope she's right.

Congrats Wiz, you are a trooper.:hug:

Great going, FG, for the new jobs. WooHoo!!

Cindy, gimme back my Jager..Waaaaaaaaaa!!

Today has been GREAT!! :Head-Spin:

Been ridin' high since yesterday's visit to the new neuro..

woohoo!!
A man who seems to talk some sense... "Well, if you feel worse on the rebif... we'll stop." totally matter-of-fact... he was also curious why liver enzymes were never checked... I'm to stay with my weekly visits to the chiropractor and begin PT to try and improve my decidedly drunken-looking walk...

so now waiting for the Copaxone to arrive... in his opinion, I'm just not an interferon kinda girl... if copaxone doesn't work, I'm qualified for guinea pig status in one of his studies...

and, oh BTW, he's about a minute older than me and SOOOO easy to look at!! cute & smart!! (so this drama DOES come with a few silver linings...:winky:)

Bethany

:Wave-Hello: Hello everyone.

This is the third week of the UTI and I'm now on Septra. What really sucks is not only do I have the pain and everything else that comes with a UTI but I also have the lovely MS symptom of vibrations and tingling in that area.....can it get any more fun :icon_rolleyes:

I have no energy at this point and I'm getting frustrated. The new carpet should be at the store this week which means we're getting close to having it installed and I am no where near having the house ready :eek:

So... FG??? Do blondes REALLY have more fun?? Glad you're feeling like your old self. Who were you B4 you were Cheryl??? ha!

Oh and about being sober~~ OK, if you say so..... :ROTFLMAO::ROTFLMAO:

PS: Bet your'e still cute either way.


Who's JAGER??? Grabbing MY bottle back from Sal who grabbed it from Cindy, who grabbed it from me...

Think I'll have a few swigs and go cut my hair or my toenails or something.

Bethany
So absolutely thrilled for you a great doc and some eye candy too. :Dancing-Chilli: Let's all do the happy dance with Bethany. It's wonderful news. Thanks for sharing, I was needing a pick me up today. :hug:

Yep, 'tis good news indeed! Bethany!

I'm wigging out a little bit right now. Okay, I'm nervous, my right hand developed a strange new numb patch this afternoon, I'm just hoping and praying that this isn't the beginning of something much bigger. I can't deal with the thought of a major attack, I haven't had one in a few years.

I hope I'm just tired and stressed about things, and that the heat got to me today, and that it will be gone in the morning.

I've been missing you, girlie! Man, take it easy and hire a couple temps to help you move things around for the installers. There is no way that you need to be doing a bunch of physical work right now, LA.

Take care of yourself, okay?

Hang in there... I'm right there with ya hoping that it's just the heat-- maybe some tired and small bit o' stress thrown in for good measure???

...all the fingers & toes are crossed for you!

Bethany

Taffy,

How did it go with the kiddies today? :) There was the cutest little 9 yo girl at the hairdressers with her Mom today. I can't wait for grandkids!!

DM,

You've got a great attitude yourself, and you crack me up in your antics with the other young'uns around here! :D

:) Thanks Cin,

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Ty will work well for me. :) I read your update about trying LDN too, I hope it works great for you.

Hi Bethany, It sounds like you hit the jackpot with your new doctor! :)

LeeAnn,

I hope you feel better soon, I'm sorry about the UTI. :( I suffer with those if I have it for two days, let alone hanging on for awhile. I hope all will go well with the carpeting, at least you'll have the end result to look forward to. :hug:

I'm impressed Cheryl. :) Nothing can make you feel better faster than a nice cut and color. I just had mine done tonight, even the atmosphere of the hair salon is a lift for me.

Thanks Sally,

I hope and pray your daughter is in a permanent remission. She's lucky to have a sweetie like you for her Mom. :hug:

I hope it's just the heat Cin. Try to rest and keep cool, and I'll send some good vibes your way. :hug: