I feel for you snoodles, truly I do.

I used to work 4 jobs. One was medical, one was VERY active, one was for MY brain and one was to have benefits. I am down to one job now, the one for the benefits. I switched to working nights, because there are no supervisors on that shift. I only have one other person there with me and I am the senior staff. It's the ONLY thing that has kept me working. No one can see me!

Having to give up my other jobs that I loved was HARD! When the cognitive stuff and the fatigue were kicking me down, it was safer to do it before I hurt someone. I can't NOT work, so I did what I had to do to protect myself and others.

I was offered the out by my neuro at the time, but I just couldn't do it. I do know that it's better to have your docs on your side. The NP is not the doc!

I am still hoping that I will get at least ONE of those jobs back...it's still waiting for me any time I feel ready!

Good luck in whatever you decide!