as i sit in my room, i hear my husband outside playing bags with the neighbor. laughing. having fun... i could just vomit.

i'm sitting here in my bedroom crying because i am scared of the unknown and scared of what i am learning. i am in pain and i am so weary of it all. i thought it quite odd that the pain dr. immediately prescribed all these meds - hydrocodone, gabapentin, amitriptyline and methadone. then i read what RSD really does to your body. and i read that i'm not crazy or imagining things.

of course, nobody i know has ever heard of RSD and just shrugs it off with a simple, "oh, i'm sorry..."