I haven't been on the boards for more than one reason. The last ms attack put me in the hospital. I could only use one side of my body, other side just limp. I'm coming out of that but it is so scary to think at any given second, my physical abilities can just be taken like that. I felt so clostraphobic not being able to move around without help.

2nd, because of thiss, my neurologist would not release me to go back to work this school year. I was planning on putting in this last year then retiring with 25 years and out. But I didn't get to make the choice. It was made for me. So at the last minutes just days before school was starting, I had to turn in my resignation. Again, all out of my control.

3rd, my dd left for college WHILE I was in the hospital. When I got home her room was just practically empty. It was just the last straw. All I am doing is crying. My heart is just broken over everything.

I am a smart lady. I can make it make sense in my mind. I know all the right anwers. But my hearrt is just overriding my common sense. I really need help. I need prayers bigd time. I need strength. I believe in God and am praying. But I just need some guidance.

If you know some scriptures that could speak to me right now I would really appreciate. I've got to get myself up out of this slump. I've got to make a new life for myself with my new limitations. It's just so hard.

Thank you all for readxin trhis is being hear for me in this time of need.