[tkayewade]

Well I have my scs revision surgery Wednesday 83 days after original implantation thanks to that stinking fall which may not be covered by workers comp because I was not on duty at the time. I had already left work. So we may have to go personal injury. Anyway, they are moving it down a vertebrae so I won't have so many unpleasant stomach sensations (I hope) and hopefully it's just a lead change and nothing breaks or comes undone so nothing has to be retunneled or the second incision does not have to be reopened, although since it keeps switching off and on they may just to check it. My rep is terrifying me with how difficult paddle lead revision is and how horrible it's going to be. Compile that with all the demands work wants, my 9 hours of grad school, my already huge fear of dying during anesthesia(anyone remember that from the last surgery-well not my scs surgery, the one before it, laryngospasm during local/twilight almost killed me) I'm a basket case. My work is only expecting me out 2 weeks and my dr says at least a month and that's with no complications. anyway, so I'm doing my general freak out, my husband is biting both mine and the kids heads off, I'm drowning in to do lists, it's just a regular old barrel of sunshine around here. I'm so tired of it all I just want to scream. I just wanted a couple of hours alone but since I've been having double vision he won't even let me drive. Oh well.

[Mark56]

I am praying for something BIG TK, something for the sake of our friend TK, a revision which goes exceptionally smoothly, which produces the restoration of life you seek, which works and works well, because the issues are all addressed, AND, a recognition by insurance the revision is necessary as a derivative correction for the sake of remediating the issue which was originally caused by workplace problems, and BUT FOR the work place problems and the surgery they necessitated, your subsequent fall would NOT HAVE produced the need for correction or revision, let alone a possible need for a possible chirpractic visit to address the simple issues a fall would inflict on a healthy body.

Hope you have a Work Comp counsel, because all is not necessarily lost.... and reality be known, I provided strategic gravamen to my counsel because the insuror needed to be educated on the language of the policy of insurance. That was my specialty. We took it to favorable conclusion. Hoping and praying it is possible in your case as well.

Praying all of these difficulties you face right now will be grasped in the ever loving hands of God and dropped in the insuror's hands for complete handling.
In this I pray!
Mark56

[Rrae]

.....and to Mark, I say AMEN!!!

(((((( T K ))))) Oh how I wish I could send the perfect pill to fix everything you are up against!

Regarding the insurance, please try not to get too up in arms about this, especially on top of the anxiety you are having over the other issues. The insurance will eventually work itself out, so put that on the back burner, k?
Try to put each stressful thing in it's own compartment rather than being overcome with the whole of things.

So, great! They are going to move down a vertebrae. This will be way better for you in the end-all. No more irritating stim in your abdomen and better coverage where it needs to be.
Your demanding job will just have to make do, especially with Dr's orders. It's their responsibility to delegate the workload, not yours.
Try to put your fear of the surgical procedure in a different context, rather than freaking out over all the 'what-ifs'. The medical staff know what to do, they are professionals and trained in this. The anesthesiologist will be sure to watch you very closely, knowing of your prior experience.
.....SHAME on your rep for instilling fear into you! Consider him SLAPPED up side the head with my left shoe!

You are in desperate need of better support at home...
Is there some outside help you could bring in to help with those 'to do' lists, a friend or extended family member?
Hubby needs lovingly reminded that you need his love and support, rather than the yelling. This is a time when family needs to pull together as a team. I say this simply because I know how bad things can get on a homefront. MY family sometimes needs to take a step back, look at the situation and refocus on helping each other and doing our part to get things running more smoothly.
So, this is my prayer for you, TK
Everybody gets uptight and nervous of the upcoming procedure. May the Good Lord bring PEACE upon you and your household.

You will be well on your way to recovery very soon.

Caring Deeply,
Rae

[eva5667faliure]

Originally Posted by Rrae

.....and to Mark, I say AMEN!!!

(((((( T K ))))) Oh how I wish I could send the perfect pill to fix everything you are up against!

Regarding the insurance, please try not to get too up in arms about this, especially on top of the anxiety you are having over the other issues. The insurance will eventually work itself out, so put that on the back burner, k?
Try to put each stressful thing in it's own compartment rather than being overcome with the whole of things.

So, great! They are going to move down a vertebrae. This will be way better for you in the end-all. No more irritating stim in your abdomen and better coverage where it needs to be.
Your demanding job will just have to make do, especially with Dr's orders. It's their responsibility to delegate the workload, not yours.
Try to put your fear of the surgical procedure in a different context, rather than freaking out over all the 'what-ifs'. The medical staff know what to do, they are professionals and trained in this. The anesthesiologist will be sure to watch you very closely, knowing of your prior experience.
.....SHAME on your rep for instilling fear into you! Consider him SLAPPED up side the head with my left shoe!

You are in desperate need of better support at home...
Is there some outside help you could bring in to help with those 'to do' lists, a friend or extended family member?
Hubby needs lovingly reminded that you need his love and support, rather than the yelling. This is a time when family needs to pull together as a team. I say this simply because I know how bad things can get on a homefront. MY family sometimes needs to take a step back, look at the situation and refocus on helping each other and doing our part to get things running more smoothly.
So, this is my prayer for you, TK
Everybody gets uptight and nervous of the upcoming procedure. May the Good Lord bring PEACE upon you and your household.

You will be well on your way to recovery very soon.

Caring Deeply,
Rae

AMEN!
Lord hear our prayers

[JavaJan]

Wow, TK....lots on your plate right now! I just want to say "ditto" to what the others have already said here, and to let you know that you are most definitely in my prayers! I pray that this time things will work out even better than you'd ever hoped.

Love, hugs, prayers...
Jan

[tkayewade]

Thanks everyone! Just nerves! Lots of nerves!!

My rep said in 13 years she saw 4 paddle lead revisions. My dr acts like he does them all the time. Urghhhhh. She singlehandedly scared me more than anyone.

Anyway, a magic pill would be great, and every day I cry at some point. I think I'm just overwhelmed and stressed.

Thanks for the prayers, and prayers that our lawyer realizes I am not healthy and normal.

Big prayers for surgery. I'm scared as always. I am crying as I type even though I know I'll be fine. The first one was fine, and this is most likely just a lead change.

My kids already lost their dad and I know all these procedures stress them, too.

Thanks for the vent!!

TK Im so sorry to read your posts and how you are having to deal with all this stress and worry. I know its not easy and its overwhelming. But you WILL be ok. You have to be positive and you have to say to yourself that everything will fall into place, but unfortunately you have to go through this HELL first to get to the other side

We will all be thinking of you and praying for you during this time. I know what it is like to be stressed and its so not nice. I feel for you I really do. Try to relax and stay calm. Try to talk with your hubby and see if he can keep you calm too. But IM SURE you will be back on here in no time and telling us all about your op and how you have come back out the other side SMILING

Take care of yourself

Jackie

[JavaJan]

...but how I wish there was more I could do to help you during this stressful and painful time!! You can be assured that we'll be keeping you in our prayers as you face this surgery, and as God carries you through it. I pray that the Lord will guide the surgeon's hands and his mind, and that all his expertise and knowledge will be put to work as he performs your surgery. Meanwhile, deeeeeep breaths. Too bad you don't have a quiet place to just go and get away from it all for awhile. If you were closer, I'd come pick you up and bring you over to my peaceful little back yard where you could watch the birds, deer with their new babies, and squirrels. Take care, my friend, and let us know how things go tomorrow as soon as you're up to it!

Lots of prayers and gentle hugs,
Jan

[Sandy Kay]

By now you should be home resting. Hoping your recovery is quick and you have the relief you experienced early on.. Sending good thought and prayers for continued comfort and peace.

Sandy Kay