Thanks both of you for giving Some kind of answer. This is a Simple question but NOT an easy question. As far as "Zoning Out". I think I already AM in a constant state of Zone Out to begin with. I am in my own little world here. I go for months sometime Years without having any kind of Real life Human interaction aside from the cashier at the grocery or the desk clerk at the library and I don't seem to care.

Do we reach a point in our lifes when we've DONE everything we are going to do and there is nothing left to want because everything we had is gone and there is NO chance in Hell of anything New coming into our life??

Do we reach a point where there is no point to wanting anything or needing anyone or caring about anything?? I don't even CARE what I eat anymore. I just grab anything that's here and sometimes I don't even go BUY food when I need to. The laundry piles up, I don't care, Screw it, I say some days. I am not mad or upset about anything. I don't want to do anything or go anywhere or try to think of anything to do. Do we get to a point when all the things we liked are DONE. Any possibility of anything happening to make a change doesn't really matter, I'm just Tired of everything. I keep thinking about my family that is Gone, a daughter I will never see again because of her mental problems, a grand daughter who I haven't seen in 5 years, growing up without a "Na", that's what she called me. I would Like to see her or talk with her on computer but last time that was possible my daughter screwed THAT up. She is my Only blood relative alive and we have Nothing and no possibility of anything, Ever.

Is this what getting old IS? I have no one to ask or talk to about it. My sister lost her husband last year and I think she is going soon now too. I EMailed her a few months ago and she never replied. It seems any and all efforts I made at Anything, come to Nothing, No Reply. I don't WANT to be depressed, I don't FEEL depressed, I feel like I am actually seeing things as they truely ARE. Am I going to go on for the rest of my life like this??

I HAVE religion, my own version of what I think God is and I do talk to God sometimes. I ask what to do next, I ask for answers, I get nothing. How can a person in a world with Billions of people feel so isolated and alone? Am I a Freak?? I just don't know anymore, maybe I am.