Hello kind people! I really hope I didn't make anyone worry too much. I have been trying to do at least one thing each day. Mainly it's been throwing out tons of books, sadly. Michael was quite the scholar and musician, and had quite a collection of books. Literally 3 floor to ceiling shelves across 3 walls full of books. Anyway, I called around and nobody wanted the various paperbacks so they are going into the recycle. Sadly, I am even having a hard time having anyone wanting the encyclopedias. As nice as computers are, it seems that most places are using them instead of books. I am also still looking for some people who might be interested in some of his amps and such.

So, I have been trying to at least get up each day. Then yesterday, I received an email that a friend (my very first boyfriend) of 36 years had a heart attack and died on Tuesday. He was another kind soul, and we had just started talking every night, and he understood what being a widow meant, and just a good friend who would just let me talk. Sad day in Pepperland....I'm once again in shock, as George was only 55.

I will try to do better at keeping everyone posted, as it seems to help me

Xie... So great to see you post! I know what you mean about the encyclopedias...we couldn't sell them at the church rummage sale and had to beg Good Will to take them. Maybe a retirement home with a library? What you are having to do is so hard....wish I could be there to help you.

I'm so sorry to hear that your friend died and 55 is waay too young.

I think you're smart to try doing at least one thing each day..it gives you a real feeling of accomplishment.

Remember that we are all here for you dear lady.

(((Xie))) You should be proud of yourself for accomplishing what you have. I am. When you're depressed and not feeling well, it's not easy, at all, doing minimal survival things, let alone cleaning. Let alone going through a loved one's belongings. It's so hard going through a loved one's belongings and letting go of them. I'm so glad you are able to do this.

The last few months I've had the same kind of problem - no emotional or physical energy to do anything at home, so now it's at the point I do just a small task each day, very much like you. Or, I should say, I try.

I hope you found some help with your financial worries. Love to you.

Thinking of you tonight Xie and wondering how you are....

Still thinking about you dear lady and hoping you are ok.

... I hope you are well Xie