Last night my roommate and dear friend tried to kill herself in our house. She stole some of my perscription sleeping pills and drank a bunch of booze.

Around 2am she started puking waking me up and fessed up to what she had done.

she told me what she had taken and how many. she had puked them up so I fed her crackers and made her sleep in my room.

I am terrified that she will do this again. My anxiety is in over drive. I have been making out my xanax just to stay some what in control and not flip out.

I'm scared to leave her alone! I'm scared I cant trust her. I feel guilty for not paying more attention. I knew she wasn't acting like her self but I'm so self consume with my issues and rehab.

What do I do? I made her call in to work and she is with me all day. I'm so tired but I'm afraid to sleep. This is so over whelming!

When someone actually tries to kill themselves, they need imediate help. Do not try to tackle this issue all by yourself. a professional is needed. If this person followed through with her want to self destruct, you would never forgive yourself for not taking some action. Please call an emeregency hot line number and talk to someone. They can direct you on how to get help for your friend. Do take on this full responsibilty on your own. It is too much for any person to have to take on. This person needs you, even if she doesn't admit it. Get the help right now, and talk to someone, before she makes a re-pete attempt. She is calling out for help. Respond to her in a way where she can get that kind of professional help. There are such compassionate therapist out there and all kinds of good help. You must now reach for that to help save her life. I am here for you too, and so is Neruo talk. There is a forum for survivors of suiside, that can also direct you to get more help. Don't let this go. There will be people right here to support you, too. I will have you in my thoughts and prayers right now. Take the approiate action to help this dear person. ginnie

Thank you for the support.

She agreed to talk to someone so I called a well trusted counselor from her church. She is coming over this afternoon.

Do I tell what happened? Do I let them talk alone? should I tell her family? I don't want to betray her trust and confidence but I feel traumatized by the events last night.

I don't feel like my house is a safe place any more.

Definately tell those that can help all the truth. I also posted to a person named alffe, and Chemar, a moderator of the site. They will be posting to you also to offer suggestions. I am soooooooo glad you are taking steps to help. I was afraid I lost your post. I am horrible at navigation on this site and didn't want to loose you. Please keep in touch with me. private message and post to the survival of suiside forum, to reach others who have been through experiences like this. There are many GOOD souls here on Neruo talk to help you. You are not alone, and I have posted to others to help you out too. Don't loose touch with me during this crisis. Others will respond to you soon too. You are very brave, and a loving friend to help her. Don't loose touch I am here for you even if I loose a post. ginnie

Hi mbrook
so sorry to hear of this trauma but glad your friend is ok.

I do think you should alert someone trusted as to what happened as you cannot carry this burden alone, and she may really be in severe crisis that needs professional intervention

Here is a list of Hotlines
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2007/com...phone-numbers/

you may also want to keep this site http://www.metanoia.org/suicide

here is our survivors of suicide forum where the members will be able to give you support and also the best advice possible
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html

Hi mbrook, what a absolutely terrible situation for you. You're doing the right thing by getting someone to come over to talk with her.

Whatever you do though, please don't deal with this situation alone. She really needs to tell her own family how desparate she's feeling and get some professional advice. You shouldn't be left in the situation you are right now as you have your own health issues to deal with.

Is there some way of getting one of your own friends to come be there with you today?

EDITED to add: I see you first posted about 5 or so hours ago.

Please update when you are able.

http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/Page...uicide_suicide
There is also some really helpful info. on this site.

esp.
Recognizing Warning Signs in Others
What You Can Do to Help Someone
Responding to an Emergency Situation

We will be waiting to hear from you. Let us know that things are OK. we all care here at Neuro talk. ginnie

Hi mbrook. You have done the right thing with your friend. Her life is not your responsibility...she is fortunate to have such a good caring friend in you. I caution you not to feel responsibile for any decision she makes...if someone is determined to end their life, they may find a way to do it. The fact that she asked for and received your help sounds like she wants to live, she just wants to feel better about living.

I hope the counselor from church came and that it helped. Please share this experience with her family and please let your friend know that you are telling them out of love for her.

You've come to the right place for support. At the top of the Survivors of Suicide forum there are a lot of helpful threads. here is the link to them..http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread238.html

Please know that you can talk to us....as can your room mate

Her church counselor came over and they talked for about an hour.

I told her that I can't solely be responsible with this knowledge and that we need to tell her parents. She cried and said she didn't want them to know.

I said that they love her and she needs their support. She only wants to tell them that she is having a hard time and not about the suicide attemp.

I called her mom and they are coming over tomorrow night.

My friend is bringing me a lock box for my meds today.

She promised that she would not do anything tonight. But I'm still afraid and I may make her sleep in my room again.

This is all sooooo much!!

Not sure what time it is where you are? Is it too late to organize for someone else to stay the night there if possible so you are not alone as well.

Edited: I didn't phrase that very well. I really meant so that there are the 3 of you in the house. That way you may feel less afraid for her.