I'm still not entirely sure I have PCS, as my only symptom is mental inclarity, which can be a number of things.

To me, it feels as if my internal dialogue is gone. Like when I used to think, I had an actual train of though that was my own voice in my head, and it was almost as loud and clear as my own voice was to myself, but inside my head. It was just like when you hear a character's thoughts in a TV show. Now that is gone. I don't have thoughts like that and it feels as if my mind is blank. This is 24/7.

I don't get any other symptoms, no headache or dizziness, nausea, etc. And my symptoms can be attributed to depersonalization disorder, which is what im more convinced I have. Just really need to know whether or not I'm going through PCS or something else, so I can find the right way to go about treating it.

I still have my voice in my head, in fact sometimes I wish it would shut up! Sometimes the voice in my head is more me then the body. Does that make sense? I don't understand why I'm doing/saying/not doing things when I'm telling myself not to.

I also find that I can't visualize things in my head. The chalkboard that used to be there is gone. Like when trying to do math or something.

I kind of describe it like this too... I seem to only be able to access the outer part of my brain. I don't feel like I can go deep into it to think about something. More like I'm reacting and not thinking. The file drawers seem to be gone from the cabinet. I still remember stuff but only if its at the surface.

This confusing explanation probably didn't help much. Sorry its so hard to explain! Just feels like a black void on my head. Sometimes its buzzy, sometimes its cloudy, sometimes it hurts.

I can see it being really hard to diagnose something from one symptom. Maybe it would be better to focus on a solution and forget diagnosis?

Good luck to you!
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Terowyn,

Have you had a NeuroPsychological Assessment ? It would help you understand these things.

I have a difficult time with those internal thought processes. But, I know I have very poor immediate and short term memory skills. I also have very little ability to visualize in my head. I used to have a photographic memory and with it a pictoral way of thinking. I can not create pictures in my mind anymore.

So, hopefully you can see how I don't have many of the mental functions that most take for granted. I believe these same symptoms can be a part of and cause of the sense of depersonalization.

As I said, a NPA may help you understand this.

My best to you.