I have been trying and trying to come up with a game plan to get out of this PCS. But rest and more rest and drawing and excercise and eating healthy and then getting anxiety, spending too much time online, losing hope, smoking a cigarette , crying about my life, I was so happy, so happy, how can I be so sad, so sad? Its getting a schedule that has been so hard, no job, aimlessness, no discipline, pain....god I have failed at trying to recover... really I have. I always think it might be too late to start trying everything I say I will try.

Whining, crying, whining, doing nothing, Internet, research, anxiety. This has got to be one of the hardest things to deal with. The medical system says go figure it out yourself...At least people with more severe injuries get to go to rehab. THere is no rehab, we are going crazy and there is nothing to do but wait. The anxiety builds and spills all over me, the ringing rings. THe thing I realize is that I need care, everyday care, anything to focus me on my recovery.

So here goes...my new crazy game plan. 3 months of intense rehab....I am going to Colorado, gonna do 40 hyperbaric dives, while doing these dives I will do three accupuncture sessions a week and will see an upper cervical chiro to readjust my neck. I will ice my neck, do vitamins, eat healthier than all the people on this planet. My thinking is that placebo or not during this care my mind will be in the mode of healing. I know hyperbarics increase wound healing so it must have some benefit. Doing everything else together will give this the best chance to work. Heck being in that state of mind will promote healing.

Than I have one month of wait and see the results of the dives, I will continue accupuncture and upper cervical work till than, and then I have 40 more dives. 80 dives, acupuncture, upper cervical chiro, vitamins, yoga, meditation, and hopefully some sort of improvement. We can't stay like this forever, can we? Good luck on your recoveries, the great thing is that that 80 dives are costing me only $4000 because I got helped by a non-profit. I will spend another 2 or 3 on acupuncture, chiro, and food and lodging. So it will be under $10,000 for this intense rehab, lets see if I am burning money or if I am going to get better. I will give you all an update after month 3 on how it all went. I am at 9 1/2 month mark, I am better but nowhere near recovered.