Waves,

Oh dear. This fever and respiratory thing sounds dreadful.
Sleep would help that and the mood. I pray the cough abates so that you sleep.
I hope you get better soon.

M.

dear waves, it sounds like the mania is getting worse.
I am sorry about this and am very sorry that you are coughing so. Running on high makes us more susceptable to getting sick IMO.
I know that you don't want to consider taking the zyprexa to treat the mania, not as a mood stabilizer but to use it to bring you back from the mania. Maybe just 5mg for one week?
bizi

Keeping track of days
 

Dear Waves,

You wrote this on Sunday night, Dec 19 (12-19-2010, 05:51 PM)

When did you start the Depakote? Thursday, Dec 17?

Today is Monday morning, December 27.
That might mean that you have taken 10 doses of Depakote.
How long does it take to kick-in? A little less than two weeks at the right dose?

Mari

i feel better today BUT
 

when i coughed what came up was emmm... much less pretty than what was coming up before.... :o

but, so far, no fever today. aha! so maybe the nasty goo has been sitting waiting for purging. if i am totally fever free today i will probably go to work tomorrow.

i did get more sleep but kept getting woken up by mom saying don't you need to call the doctor, can you get this out, are you going to work, don't you need to call work...bla bla blaRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fer cryin out lound i haven't slept more than an hour straight in weeks! finally i do and this is what happens!!! :Bang-Head:

~ waves ~

Zyprexa
 

Dear Bizi,

thanks for your support and all the hugs and here's some back for you :hug::hug::hug: you need them stuck up in that "weather" :eek: ;) hey, butcha know what, cold tends to reve up the metabolism... could come in handy for the diet program or to offset the goodies folks eat this time of year... but, i digress. or do i? (Zyprexa is a goody alright.:p)

Zyprexa
Yours is not a bad idea... i do bear in mind i have that stuff in the drawer. But as i have said before there are issues - will try to explain in more detail, and especially now:

i don't know if my pdoc would approve and he is away. pdoc gave it to me to use for sudden emergence of specific symptoms, specifically thought disturbances (or psychotic sx of any kind). of course, these are not always evident to the person experiencing them but i've usually had some sort of not-rightness or disorientation with beliefs, esp when it starts.

i guess racing thoughts can land you there, but as twisted as mine have been getting, it just seems to be a loud convoluted circus of loose circuits that do not alter belief systems. my subjective perception is that, while they hinder my thinking at times, so far, there is no contortion of thought.

for control in these conditions i feel that < 10mg would be a waste of drug, and i don't have enough to take 10mg qd until pdoc - nor do i want to take it for more than a week anyway (bunch of weight gain).


i am concerned about stopping it while back at work. been there, done that => paranoia, granted different situation - bad anxiety, but the anxiety is mounting due to this extended absence so i just don't know.

finally. if the physical stuff gets better, the sleep will get better. i believe if that gets better, the raciness will lose intensity. the lack of sleep is doing me in right now, but a knocker outer is not what i need, if i need to cough - better for me to wake up and get it out.

sorry for long spew.... :o :hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

Depakote
 

Dear Mari,

650mg is too low. i've taken 800mg for 3 nights now... that should be effective but since this is treatment not prevention, i may yet need more. seems to me it acts pretty fast - (maybe a week going on recollection?) once you hit the right dose. but we don't know what the right dose is. i have plenty of pills. i can go up to a gram on that and pdoc will not mind. my boss might mind when i start not to be able to add, but that tends to creep in slowly.... so....

feel pretty clear headed right now but like i said comes in bouts. now i need to go wash dishes, wash myself, make lunch oh wait i just did (hence dishes!), oh... work on the pants-alteration-project and my folks' gift and other stuff that currently escapes me.... with my luck, probably has to do with washing something else. :rolleyes: wash-wash, wash-wash, wish-wash, wash-wash, whooooosh!!! :) oops! spilled the water!!! :p:cool::D

:hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

Dear Waves,
I'm glad that the fever has done its thing and gone.

Good luck with the respiratory stuff. Feel better.
Yesterday, I read on crazy meds us that a rare side effect of Depakote is infection. I'm tossing that out to you -- but I think that you you have not been on the Depakote very long.
I ran across something earlier today about how the throat chakra can take a beating when we go through a change. Also, the throat chakra has a hard time when we can't speak up, have to hold back . . . (humor me here :cool:)

http://ancienthealing.org/article/a-...oat-chakra.php
You sound better in these posts. Is the hypo less hypo right now?

M.

Dear Mari

the stuff you posted about the throat chakra fits me to a T. i read something vague about that stuff a long time ago and think about it from time to time... in how how i am blocked from expressing myself.......... this the whole creative hole if you'll pardon the pun.

thanks for info on depakote/infection... good to know although in my case it was brewing before i started Depakote.

dunno where the mania is at. past the Christmas sentimentality which rendered things murky ...i thought maybe i was falling... or maybe it was frustration from the illness incapacitating me for a while....

now mood is chipperer than chipper. i am still rambunctious but having fewer (today none) of the holy guacamole i'm dead spells of crashing on the bed because of body caving in.

i am perpetually doing stuff and in a hurry. tonight i had scheds to do but i did extra stuff... got it wrong, got irked, fixed it, and then moved onto the important tast of shaving sweaters.... i had to desist at some point as i must go to bed. i am not totally unreasonable no, and i do know i need to get to bed. i am resisting the temptation to get on with the pants alteration thing.

in retrospect i see some weird stuff :

- i bought a bunch of useless dumb stuff - no, not expensive and tg i didn't have the plastic option. hose seems to be my "THING" this time around. (no earrrings or cards this time, wow!) it seems to get brought home and forgotten. i turned it up when i was looking for stuff to handwash.
- i turned what might have been supposed to be a 1/2 hour job? at work into a several day project :confused: i am still not sure what to do with that.... feel compelled to finish ... maybe i can finish fast? :p
- other stuff at work.... i know i was not right the last day i spent there. i hope tomorrow is ok. there is weird stuff going on with my boss ... i hope he is away so i can detach.

i mean, lately, i have been been shut in the house sick, and like really out of it despite the restlessness. that feeling was very uncofmrtable and frustrating but if you think about it it is somewhat containing. so yeah, i feel better now insofar as i feel lots more on top of lots of things (DON'T take that too many places please....;)). and i'm not having those recurrent crying fits which sucked.

yesterday i cooked up a storm. it was more than i could handle with a fever and yeah i keeled but hey.... food got cooked!

so, is the hypo/mania/"HIGH" better? ehhh... yeah, it's much better thank you - i am much more able to appreciate it now! :D

~ waves ~ hoping i don't buy more hose tomorrow... especially more that doesn't fit.

Waves
You seem to be writing a lot better. Hoping this is true.

Not exactly sure how to explain about the medication, and what
would happen. But with one son if he got sick, and had to sleep
it off. It was like he didn't take the depakote till he was well.
SOmething in his symtome was not recognizing the medication being
there. I am pretty sure he was taking it. Because I had to give it
to him.

I didn't really see these problems with the other one. But he had
problems with retrieving his thinking. But this was something that
was there at this point in his life either way.

Donna:grouphug:

thank you Donna - i guess i will try to park at 800mg until i see my pdoc.

i should hope my writing is guetting better considering how wiped out i was with the cold/bronchitis or whatever the nastie beastie is.

~ waves ~