That is definately the first priorioty

Donna

Dear Bobby,

Some people add the oil to whatever they are eating /drinking. Find ways to put it with / on / in food --- steamed vegetables, . . . whatever you are eating.


That dream might have bothered me too. I have mostly learned to ignore my dreams. Sometimes I catch a glimpse of them when I first wake up. By the time my feet reach the floor, I have forgotten the dream. I figure if something is important for me to work on or know about, it can come to me during the day when I am awake.

I hope you go the the center today and feel good about being there.
Have a good day.

Mari

Hi Mari
the dream really bothered me. I never realized how upset i was by her treatment of me so I guess I still have a lot of rage in me towards my mother. I think a lot of it too is because i am bipolar and everything gets magnified. I wish I had a dream where i was making up with her.
i am not good at analysing dreams and my therapist doesn't do it. I think they are important.
I read somewhere that you can put olive oil into coffee. I am afraid to try it but one of these days I might. I am still having it with romaine lettuce. A friend suggested i put it on roasted vegetables. She mentioned using a pan and putting aluminum foil under it and roasting the vegetables. I perseverated and kept on thinking of a frying pan since i hardly use the oven and asked her how do the vegetables roast. we laughed for a few minutes.
I woke up again really depressed. I am so ambivalent about life. yesterday at the center a woman who was 104 sat at the table. she has to use a wheel chair but she was really sharp. amazing. there was a lot of talk at the table. i wound up not doing the crossword puzzles.
I am dreading doing the taxes although i don't have that much to do. I think i will use last years as a template. i don't owe any taxes so if i make a mistake i am not really afraid.
my neighbor stopped over yesterday to see Pudge. Pudge was very sweet. I am so fortunate about my neighbor. she offered to pay for the grooming which cost about 110 dollars and she even took her to the groomers. she then took me out to eat. I am really appreciative and realize that something must be wrong with me for being so depressed when i had such nice things happen to me. also the forum makes me feel better. i feel as if i am cared about.
thank you all so much
fondly
bobby

Bobby

You are definately cared about. I wonder if your subconcious is trying to
get you to talk about the situation with your mother. If maybe its telling
you its time to resovle it. Not so much do what happened in it the way
it happened, but make it die in words.

Well We love you and area here if you want to talk.




Donna

I have anxiety issues.

I haven't got a son that has been diagnosed with bi-polar exactly.
Its something very close. But I work with families that have children
and young adults that have bi-polar. And all other mental health issues.

I also have a sister and brother-in-law that are bi-polar.

Donna

Hi bobby,
I love to hear about 104ladies doing anything social!
good for her. Glad that your table was active! and glad that you went to the center.
thank you for your support.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi, Bobby,

Olive oil in coffee is worth a try. People who do not like the taste of olive oil might not like the mix and people who love olive oil would be fine. I don't drink coffee. I do drink tea. I think I would rather take the oil by the teaspoonful than by mixing it in tea.

I bought some coconut oil last year that I have been using to make scrambled eggs (I think it can be cooked to higher temperatures than olive oil can but I might be wrong) . . . and sometimes as a body oil. It has some good health benefits although I cannot remember what they are.

Waves explained in one of the food posts that the olive oil should not get cooked. Add the oil to the food after it has roasted.

One suggestion about the dreams -- make notes here or somewhere else so that you can notice a pattern that will eventually help you talk about them and let them go -- something like that. I think making a record of them can be meaningful for some people.

Some people are able to choose what they dream about. For example, they can wake up from a dream and then go back to sleep to complete the dream in a satisfactory way.

I hope you can get your taxes done in a way that is free of anxiety.

Mari

thank you so much
i think you might be right. My mother has been dead for almost 15 years. It was weird that the 104 year old woman sat at the table i sit at and the night before i had the dream about my mother who would have been 103. I have tried so many times to resolve the hurt feelings. two or three months before she died, i spoke to her -she called- and said she loved me. the way she treated me as i entered my teens until we were carrying on conversations before her death she didn't seem to. she was so critical. she was so cold. she was only warm when she wanted something from me which I did until the last five years of her life. Now I scare myself when i think of all the decisions i made in my life....it has been such a bipolar life with such extremes. I was crazy to major in Latin for instance and my parents weren't pleased about it.
Then i tried to get a doctorate in psychology while working full time and over time and didn't do my dissertation or pass the comprehensive. so many of my teachers had left and the questions were primarily from teachers i didn't have.
It was too much and i set myself up for failure even though i did work in the field. I did a clinical internship. My choices in boyfriends were really bad too. I thought one was my soulmate but he was an alcoholic who used drugs and killed himself when he was about 31 by hanging himself from a tree. He had tried when he was 14 too. He suffered from deep depression.
my kitty cats have been unusually friendly to me lately.they thank goodness are in my mind a lot. I have a couple of spiritual books i want to read. I seem to be very lonely. I am blithering on. thank you again
bobby

Hi Mari
I have read how good coconut oil is for you. I haven't looked it up for constipation. I will look it up after this post. I hope i get the courage to try the olive oil in coffee. It sounds so greasy. I haven't read about not cooking olive oil. i will have to look that up too.
the dream of my mother was so totally out of the blue. I think i am too lazy to write down my dreams when i remember them.
I don't remember last night but i couldn't fall asleep til after three. it was awful.
the olive oil has the extra calories but i think they are worth it if they help my problem which miralax seems to be taking care of. I wish i didn't have to take a laxative.
bobby