Hi bobby/my morgy
 

I will keep you close to my thoughts today in hopes that your depression will lift just a bit. I know how lousy it is, and wouldn't wish it on anyone. I am on several medications myself. I also have council. I wish there was something I could say or do, to make you feel better. You are not alone, I care, ginnie:hug::grouphug:

heya
 

Dear Bobby

glad that helped just a little bit.

this migraine phase i just have to ride out. usually there's 3 day's worth but it's related to another event that ain't happenin' grrr.

that's funny about the cello thing.

i really just wanted to write you a little note coz you're on my mind. i'm sorry about the bad imagery. i'd have more to say but i'm kinda out of it... take care sweetie.

love and a big big hug

~ waves ~

thank you for writing that i am not alone. i had lunch with a friend on saturday and felt better. it lasted for a while. then i dropped down into my mood. i had dinner with a friend last night and that lasted for a while and then this morning i woke up so depressed. I started worrying about my lease. I shouldn't worry but i do. then i realized when i get it that won't make me feel much better. i am afraid it is all bipolar and generalized anxiety disorder.
bobby

thanks so much waves
and a big hug to you
love
bobby the complainer

Hi Bobby
 

Keep hanging in there and trying to beat back that depression. I do the same thing bobby. Each day I am trying to find one moment of Joy, in a flower, my book, a cookie, anything really that can make me feel good for one minute, one second. Then I dwell on that one moment of good. Even being here on NT with you is therapy for me. Keeping contact with my friends here, makes all the ______ I have to go through less difficult.
Instead of doing something over the weekend, I am having company tomorrow, I will make a good key lime pie today, and enjoy myself making it.
I won't say all the stuff that I am going through, it is depressing too, just know that I think about you and my friends here on NT all the time. We are not alone bobby, not really. We are all joined in the human family. Together we are stronger. Try to find that moment today, where you can have peace. ginnie:hug::grouphug::)

thanks Ginnie...that is good advice....I have been reading some Psalms this morning. they seem to have helped. I have been having awful imaginery.
the pie sounds great
bobby

About bad thoughts
 

I know about bad images. You can fight this too. When the picture comes into your mind or dream, acknowledge it, see it, then kick it right out, but replacing it with some other picture. Picture a mountain with the reflection in deep blue of a lake. Picture some bird flying with you flying right along side it. Those bad images can be turned around if you try this. Have a book of art near by, dwell on some other picture. If you get Nova or discovery on TV see what is on, and watch nature. Nothing better than baby animals to look at to make a person smile. Get that distraction going bobby and it may help to relieve some of the stress and anxiety. I do this, and it is something my councelor instructed me to try and it worked. If I wake up with a bad dream, i just say OK, and pick up that book, or picuture and kick the other out. I try not to stess over the horrible thoughts, but say OK, and look or do something else. Maybe try it just once and see if it helps. Have some art book near by to meditate on, something to take you away to a better place. I care about you bobby, I try everything I can to beat back depression. I am loosing my home now, and trying not to loose my mind with it. so I am engaging in everything I can to distract me from the sorrow I feel. Keep in touch Bobby, I do care about you. ginnie:hug:

dear ginnie, I am sorry...did you say that you are losing your home...that is awful.
I am so sorry. wish I could help.
there aer so many here that suffer...I wish that you could not have to suffer. you are such a treasure.
(((((HUGS)))))
much love bizi

Hi Bizi
 

Yes, my friend I am loosing my home. I had no health insuance when I got sick. while I was waiting for benefits, most of what my folks saved up for, in a trust was used. The Gov. would not let me keep the benefits of the trust that were there to pay for my taxes and insurances. They forced me to use it before I was granted medical benefits. I do not receive enough from medicare/medicaid/food stamps, SSDI to pay for my property taxes. My son has been doing this for me. I do not think I should have my son pay for me to live. It isn't fair to him, and he has had to work alot of over time to help me. He also paid for my dental bill, which was huge. All of this has been going on for years bizi, I am on the coast, and citizens insurance is corrupt. they have put homeowners insurance so far out of reach, it isn't possible for those here where I live unless you are very well to do. when I moved here in 95 both the taxes and the insurance were very affordable. In 04 there were 4 hurricanes, and citizens insurance not just raised their rates, but they dropped all homes over 50 years old and that was me. I can get re-instated for under 8 grand a year. I am a sitting duck to storms, and I take a chance being here, with no way to re-build if a storm should come along. I made the decision over the weekend, and have a realtor coming thursday. No I am not doing good with this, on top of all else, but I don't see any choices. I am heart sick, that a paid for home is lost because I got sick. this shouldn't happen to people who work all their lives bizi. Getting sick shouldn't cost everything a person has worked for and all monies, but this happened none the less. Lots of folks are suffering, I am just but one....I know you care, its gonna be OK....ginnie

very sad for you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi