[DiMarie]

Originally Posted by BlueMajo

I think we can Di, but that means no schoolarship one semester and I need that money to live plus Im sure if I leave for a semester I wont be back

To make my day more miserable:
Do you remember the guy I told you I "was in love" but that he had a gf etc... Well, it was his graduation day today and my father wrote him an email.... To congratulate him...
1) he doesnt speak spanish
2) my father wrote him a long message pathetically translated in google translator from spanish to english

THIS IS THE MOST EMBARASSING THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME IN A LOOOOOOOONG TIME !!!!!

I feel like all my life I have felt ashamed for one thing or another... Ridiculous after ridiculous...

argh... He might be thinking my father is retarded or something

Oh I get the scholarship.....but I got to a point where I was done. I went back when I was 50 to finish the 4 year degree.

As far as being upset about your Dad's note, PLEASE REST ASSURED when I use the translator for foreign friends, I realize and they realize a translator or broken language is used. No one laughs or teases about language barriers, that would be like laughing at other traits. If someone were ever to laugh they are not frind worthy.

You really do not need to waste a brain cell what your friend thinks, if he is honorable he loved receiving he congrats on his very special day.
I can promise you it was nothing for you o fret over, just kindness. Oh boy how many times my parents made embarrassing statements to others about me. I survived. Now my parents are passed and I miss speaking to them.
love
Di

[BlueMajo]

(((((((Di))))))))

I really feel blessed for having such wise friends like you.... Im having a bad moment right now.... One of those when Im trying to contain myself, to control my impulses.... And I came here, to read, and calm down and found your post....

Perfect timing !

Thank you so much.

You all here are the best thing that could happen to me in my life.

[bizi]

dear Majo, I am sorry you are having a hard time right now.
read some from your bible, what ever works.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[BlueMajo]

Thank you dear Bizi

Seriously, just coming here gives me lots of peace

Went to the gym, sweat all my demons away Right now I just feel like crying.... haha. Gym does weird things to my mood

I love you all so much.

[waves]

Dear Majo

Well the gym is good for your body and maybe you need a good cry right now. Sometimes that's how it is. Crying releases endorphins too remember. Just don't overdo - have a good bawl and then stop. Do you have anyone there to comfort you? Maybe your mom?

I'll hold you in my thoughts, ok sweetie?

love

waves

[Mari]

Originally Posted by BlueMajo

Went to the gym, sweat all my demons away Right now I just feel like crying.... haha. Gym does weird things to my mood

The Gym can do that to me too, Majo.


M

[DiMarie]

My lovely Mar Jo, you also bring joy to us. Your youth is refreshing, the travels, research, such fun to read. The love you share I know I feel it and makes me feel blessed.

Life ill one day slow down, you will remember like Bizi says the rough times like a small distant memory. Life can hurt, but gives us love too. Most days we just hope for peace and a comfortable bra. Lol that was a joke, try as I may one does not exist.

Sending a hug, you know what is better hn a hug from us? A daddy's hug. Wrap your arms around him nd get the biggest bear hug he'll give. I never hugged my a dad enough and miss that.
Love you my friend,
Di

[BlueMajo]

I read your lovely posts last night but couldnt reply because I was too emotional

Seriously, the gym makes me feel so odd.... I have checked my blood sugar levels and are normal.... but I always cry after the gym ! You should see me crying like a river while doing the bike....

I love you all very much. This is the only please where I know I wont get hurt and where I feel loved

Thank you so much for all your support, love and beautiful posts

[bizi]

Let there be tears of joy that you are taking care of yourself by biking. this is good. YOu are doing a good job. continue to try to take care of your needs.
Eating well, exercising and getting enough sleep and prayer time meditation time if you do that.... are so important!
bizi

[BlueMajo]

Im bad my friends... It's been a while since I have troubles every day... I feel good one second, want to die the next second... I screw up my relationships with people, "friends", family....

Yes, I have talked with pdoc and we have tried different things but once again, I feel great 2 hours, and then, everything is darker again...

I really want this period of my life to get over.

I feel dizzy due to all the emotions I experience a long the day...

I feel weird... Seriously, Im worried because I think Im getting really insane... Completely crazy... I cant control myself and my life is a total mess...

How do you ask for forgiveness ? How do you ask for not a second chance but a 100th one !?