Thanks for the article which led me to another article.

I am reminded about exercising, but have some issues with that, not the least of which being my messed up knee.

The computer situation evolved a bit. Suffice it to say, doing what I want to do is more "involved" than I had hoped. I am probably looking at a trade-off situatioon, and not sure I'm ready to accept the trade.

The good news is that I looked at it a little more.

I'm also observing this computer's "symptoms". Before I take it to hospital, I need to make sure it is actually sick, as opposed to me using it funny and upsetting it.

My sleep has gone to hell. Today I slept from 10 am to 4 pm :o:eek:, after staying up all night and then going to the grocery store. Completely upside down.

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Waves,

'Stinks that the computer situation de-volved.
I hope that the observations prove productive.


Sleep is such a weird thing.
We need it for everything and yet it is hard.

M

I did more stuff. Loosely job-related. Technical stuff. Stuff that "counts" in relation to my joblessness.

And, here's an observation on the whole doing stuff process....

I had a hard time. Not technically. Emotionally. I had to push myself through it. I broke it down and bargained with myself to do just a piece, and then said well come on, let's do another piece. During the course of the night, bit at a time and going off to do inane useless stuff in between pieces, I got to all the pieces of the task I originally was putting off.

I had a hard time with each piece. I felt a slight anxiety. Not enough to take a pill or anything. But certainly enough to cause resistance.

I think my overall resistance might be bound up with all kinds of irrational obsessive stuff. I think this might be the case even in other areas, where the mysterious resistance crops up.

So, anyway, I'm trying to work through this anxious/obsessive stuff. It is all uphill, but I did have some success tonight.

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Waves,

Wow.

You are so amazing. http://www.freesmileys.org/smileys/smiley-gen013.gif
This is hard stuff to think through and to feel through.
You are brave -- even if you might think that you are only part way to getting started on the journey.
That you felt/ observed resistance . . . . such a big deal. http://www.freesmileys.org/emoticons...object-103.gif
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Uphill . . understandable.
Your success tonight is great.

Mari

Mari said it all.
Kudos, waves.

Thanks guys. :):):)

I felt kind of amazed that I got through all the bits. I am pleased with myself.

Thank you both. Your support means a lot tto me.

:hug::hug:

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p.s., Mari, I loved the cute little flower emoticons and pompom girl.

Hi Waves,

I saw your post title as I started browsing and I thought of my husband.

Your posts are very open and personal. Reaching out is hard to do.

My husband has struggled like you. I always knew the man he was but couldn't present. He would read books and scour the internet on how to help himself. Even though he had these great strategies and support he was still unable to do what needed to be done.

He saw his dr and was referred to a psychiatrist. He was diagnosed ADD and started taking Vyvanse.

He's had a huge amount of success. The procrastination is 80% better! more focus! finally follow through! and mental organization and motivation.

I don't know if this would apply to you but I needed to share just incase.

Best wishes to you,

Jace

Congratulations waves. You should be proud of your self. keep going, I know that you can do this. YOU ARE DOING THIS!
bizi

Jace,

Thank you. I really appreciate your taking an interest and taking the time to share how your husband got well. I am happy for you both. :):hug:

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Bizi,

Thank you. :)
Will try to do another bit or few bits later on today. :)

We'll see.

I am dealing with other stuff right now that is kind of bothering me. I will need to put it down for a while, and try and move things forward again.

God I need a cup of coffee... or a jug is more like it.

:tongue: :Yawn: ....... :Zzzz:

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