Waves,

That indeed was a good visit.
He was thorough and you feel good about his skills.

Mari

maybe embarrassment is the ticket?
 

Yes. After feeling ashamed and embarrassed about my last post (overall job situation and stupid not doing of things)... I managed to locate a Linux Cd.

I did not get around the noise problem or ignore it.

I looked in my parent's very old machine to see if I'd left the Ubuntu CD in there. I used a paper clip so no power on.

It wasn't there. I started trying to grab stuff out of the pile to look through, quietly, and found a bag of Computer magazines. It did not include the CD I was looking for, but I found the magazine that came with it -- could help, I thought. THEN, I realized there was ANOTHER magazine in there, WITH its CD... an OpenSUSE (also a Linux CD).

So I read an article comparing the Linux I found and the one I was going to use. The one I found will in fact probably be better for my purposes.

So did two things:
1. found a Linux CD, albeit a different one
2. researched to confirm viability

So far, so good.

waves

obsessive hangups!
 

Now I need to back up this machine so I can wipe data from the old one. Thaat is emotionally difficult for me.

I hate wiping machines even more than I hate changing machines. I get fearful about losing stuff, no matter how many backups I think I've made. I'm always afraid I'll delete some nook or cranny that was inadvertently left out of the backup... and one day will need that exact stuff.... This is irrational. I think it is kind of an obsesssive thing. But I need to calm down about it. :rolleyes::o and somehow get past it.

I run into these kinds of problems quite a bit. :o

:Scratch-Head:

You are really smart about the computer stuff.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Waves,

Yes, we understood that the list was just a list. :)
We wanted to cheer you onward. :)

Re the job thing:
SOMETIMES movement in one area can produce movement in others . . .
. ..reminds me of the expression that goes something like this: "If you want something done, ask a busy person to do it for you."

That appt seems to have gone much better than others that you have mentioned. This is a good sign. ('Sorry that I cannot go back to see if there was another recent successful appt).

The ENT visit was something to celebrate even if he did not find something that would have been easy to fix. You made process. You had a good encounter.

I am pulling for you.

Mari

U OH.
I gotta come back to this. :)

I will be back. It has vocab that i have to think through and I think hubby will be home any min. ---- have to make sure the kitchen is not much worse than usual. :D


m

Thank yoou, Mari.

And yes, I waas very happy about the ENT visit.
And indeed I have had as many bad experiences with medical professionals here as I have good. In fact, perhaps slightly more bad.

This ENT was a relief, because I was worried about it being inconclusive or worse. Instead, it was as conclusive as it could have been. Progress was made: 1) things were been ruled out. 2) tests were ordered.

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Aand thank you, all of you, for trying to cheer me on. :grouphug:

I guess I am a difficult patient, aren't I. Folks try to cheer me on, but I dont cooperate. :rolleyes::o

waves

Here is me being a bad patient again.

The things I do, such as shower, or cook do not constitute any more movement than is usual and ordinary for me. Those activities don't produce that "get the juices flowing" effect. :o Unfortunately. In fact, sometimes it's the opposite... I cling to anythign and everything as a distraction.

I have a horrific resistance to doing the job-related stuff, it seems. I can't figure out why, or how not to have this resistance. It almost looks like self-sabotage.


Naah. Don't clutter your head with that stuff. I may want it for back-reference oherwise I'd delete it. Sorry about that.

Executive summary sans technogook: I did two things....

...towards staying online while my sick laptop goes to hospital. Being onlline is essential to job-searching. Also the tasks involved are somewhat work-related for me.

Therefore, the two things I did "count", unlike showers or dinner which I do not have a problem with and so do not count, relative to my problem: work.

waves

Waves,

Well that is good.

I hope it stays good.

Mari

Waves,

Thanks for giving me a pass on the computer stuff.
When I hear anything about computers my eye glaze and I go into a type of fuque.
Hubby approved of my soup of black eyed peas.

You did not fail. We are pulling for you.
The dr stuff and all the other stuff is not unrelated entirely to a job.

I am trying to remember how a psychologist might deal with a "block."
. . . try to go around it, go close it, take tiny baby steps, . . .

This somewhat makes sense to me.
If it is inappropriate, I apologize:

http://www.dumblittleman.com/2013/02...al-blocks.html
'Interesting that it mentions taking a shower as a way to stay in the present -- sometimes I have to focus in the shower but when was younger I could go somewhere else in my head, . .

Take care.

Mari