i am so impressed. way to go...best of luck in having no more hassles to get your license back. I hope your husband calmed down later.
bobby

I made him promise on the drive back that he would try to be calm driving home and he arrived in one piece. He was very upset because of the traffic and the fact that he had forgotten his license and wallet at home.

I called my insurance company about the special insurance yesterday and apparently the new quote has to come from a special system in the state of MA. The quote came up as twice what we pay now, not including the DUI. So, I have no idea how high my insurance is going to be, but It's going to be ridiculous.

My husband wanted me to wait until next month to get this insurance issue cleared up until next month, but that would delay my NH driving clearance by I don't know how long... and therefore my MA license restoration by a long time. I convinced him that we could do it earlier. It's the last thing I have to do to satisfy NH.

I got some way worse news yesterday, but I want to keep it to myself for now. I took an extra Klonopin... went up to 4mg... oh well... and got into bed and pulled the covers over my head for several hours to hide but couldn't sleep. I'm not depressed, it's just a situational issue and it's going to take some time before I get answers so I'll have to worry about it for a while.

oh kay am sorry for the way worse news.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi
thank god for klonipin.

My husband and I went food shopping yesterday, so I got out of the house. The weather was very nice. And after taking it easy on myself and ordering out 2 nights in a row, my husband and I had had enough heartburn and I decided to cook last night. It was nothing spectacular, but at least I got my head out of the sand for a while.

On the license front:

I called the NH DMV to pay my $100 fine yesterday and I asked about that special insurance certificate again (it's called an SR22 and it's just proof of insurance). Apparently once the NH DMV receives proof that I've taken the driving class they'll send me a special form to take to the MA DMV to get the SR22 ball rolling.

After 2 calls to the driving class people trying to figure out how long it would take for the DMV to get word I took the driving class, a lady told me that they had to email me a consent form for me to sign and mail back to them because I took my intake with a different organization and they have to be the ones to file the paperwork. This makes me nervous because any time you add an extra entity you increase your chances of (expletive) ups, and I'm sure this will delay things. Also, the people at the organization in question aren't exactly sharp as tacks. By the way, would anyone have picked up on this issue if I hadn't called?

I called the MA DMV to ask what I needed to do when I got the form re: SR22. Basically, I have to provide them with everything they would want if I was going there to get my license back...
Fortunately, I have already requested the documents I *think* I need from the court for that and can make copies when I get them, but I'll need to go to the NH DMV to get a copy of my driving record again.
I'm glad I called because I would have shown up with just the form otherwise. Nobody tells you anything. And there are no instructions anywhere. I guess that's why everyone hires a lawyer. Fortunately for me, I'm paranoid and persistent.

After MA deals with the form, I can get insurance and the SR22 certificate to satisfy NH, ending my ordeal with that state with the exception of a trip to the main DMV office.

I was so proud of myself for getting through last weekend like I did, but I don't feel any closer to getting my license back anymore if MA is going to suspend it for another year. I still feel compelled to get things done quickly though because if they suspend it, they suspend it for a year from the date you restore it.

It's double jeopardy. And because I need that SR22 for NH, I may be paying for very high priced insurance for a year even though I may be unable to drive. And I'm unwilling to accept the idea that I may be stranded for another year.

We're not flush and my husband is already upset about the cost of the insurance, so he is hating the idea of me hiring a lawyer. But if they suspend my license when I go to have it restored, I'm going to fight it.
I don't know if I should hire a lawyer for the restoration hearing (probably cheaper) or wait until they probably hit me with a year's suspension and have to appeal.

It's good to have the correct information and be prepared, but I have to somehow stop fixating on this. I'm going to have to deal with the fact that I will have to wait for some things and that there are things that are out of my control. The way things are going, I think it will be a while before I can get around to seeking my license restoration in MA anyway. Since the result of that is the most depressing part, I'm going to have to find a way to stay more in the present.

2mg Klonopin this morning.
I see pdoc at 3 today.
I want to be very careful that this doesn't turn into something situational and into something worse.

Wow kay.
yes this sounds like you don't really have control of this.
try to come up with some other project to keep your mind busy while time elapses and you are just going to have to wait.
UGH!
sounds very complicated and you are smart to keep up with it.
well done.
I hope things turn out good for you and that You don't have to wait another year to get your license.
what ever will be will be I guess.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I saw pdoc and she said my reactions are appropriate to the situations I am facing, but nonetheless things bear watching. No med changes, next appointment in a month unless something changes.

I just wanted to ice my cake a little more:

I caught something online about the driving class I just took. It turns out if they think you have a substance abuse problem, they will likely refer you to "aftercare." I out and out admitted I'm an alcoholic and I bet that didn't help. I think that's the real reason why they had me sign that consent form and are bouncing my case back to the org. where I had my intake done.

"Aftercare" usually consists of weekly appointments with substance abuse councilors and drug testing that can last weeks, even months, at your own expense. Of course all of this would happen in NH (I have no way of getting a regular ride there), and I would have to find a way to pay for it.

I could be wrong, but I think I'm pretty much screwed.

Forget about the rest of it. Lord only knows when any of those worries will be relevant.

Damn, I wish I was a liar.

I am so sorry you are going through this horrible worrying. you told them you haven't been drinking for a while now so maybe that will be a big positive.
bobby

please don't be hard on yourself.
take it a day at a time.
that is all we have to deal with.
the present.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

A lawyer might give you the room to distance yourself by handling details.


I would have finessed the truth about being an alcoholic since some rules to do not apply to people with bipolar and lay people/ lazy thinkers do not understand the complexity.
Lots of people drink as part of their bipolar -- being bipolar is something that we have absolutely no control over so we neither do we have complete control over the drinking either

It my case, the fact that I have bipolar was set generations ago (via the genetic component) and nothing I can alter.

And the only reason I have not run afoul of the law is
1) great deal of luck
2) great deal of prayer
3) staying home a lot so as not to be any in situation (I am risk averse and know that even a rare event can result in
a life altering legal or other dire circumstance.)


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