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bizi 02-27-2019 11:40 PM

Mari is right!
They already told you they hire a cleaning company.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

OhKay 02-28-2019 10:14 AM

All of these property management companies have professional cleaning companies come in after residents leave, and have their maintenance teams fix anything that needs fixing, and repaint the apartments. But that doesn't mean that they won't take money out of your security deposit if you don't leave your apartment in a condition that meets their expectations, which vary...

And I have OCD. BAD. I have a really hard time trying to figure out what needs to be done because when I look around I feel like EVERYTHING needs to be done. But yesterday I said something to myself many times that I seldom say: Good enough. I guess that's progress, but now that I have an extra day to finish cleaning, I will have a hard time not doing MORE than I planned to yesterday.

I fell asleep on the couch somewhere around 7:30 last night, but even though I had smoked MJ before then, I couldn't stay asleep for long. I smoked again before going to bed, but couldn't sleep through the night because of tons spasticity. I woke up around 7:30 this morning feeling like I hadn't slept at all.

I have no idea how I've been able to keep going. Mania is a strange thing. I feel like I'm reaching the point where I won't be able to do anything else soon tho. It will not be physically possible.

I'm not exactly in a rush to get over there because the rest of the cleaning will not last all day, but I want to be done with this, and to be done with that place.

bizi 02-28-2019 11:30 AM

sorry you did not sleep.enough is a good word.
(((((HUGS)))) to you today.
turn those keys in!
bizi

OhKay 03-01-2019 10:50 AM

I took my sweet time going over to the old place yesterday. I ran a few errands first, so I didn't get there until after noon. I cleaned the floors, washed the slider, and cleaned the backsplash and counters in the kitchen, and got the f- out of there!!! I made sure I got a receipt when I turned in the keys.

I can't tell you how F'ING HAPPY AND RELIEVED I am that I'm finally done with that place!!! :):):)
It feels so strange that I don't have to rush over there this morning to break my back cleaning.

Last night I laid on the couch with a pillow under my knees and I just kept moving the heating pad all over my body. I fell asleep with it under my thighs. No idea what time it was, but it was well before 9. I couldn't sleep through the night, and I was up at 7:30 this morning feeling like I got no sleep at all again :(

No rest for the wicked... I have errands to run and I see my pdoc this afternoon.

Dmom3005 03-01-2019 02:27 PM

Rest is over rated I think.
So you can rest when you get back or when you want later.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

bizi 03-02-2019 12:18 AM

Yeah!!!!!!:Dancing-Chilli:
You moved now you can rest...no more hurrying.
how was your pdoc appointment?
bizi

OhKay 03-02-2019 10:52 AM

I haven't had a real conversation with anyone in a while when I haven't been high or totally drained, so the appointment with my pdoc was interesting. I was surprised at what came out of me/how it came out. Despite feeling like I came down, I'm still manic. She wants me to increase the gabapentin, and made me promise I would try to rest.

I went to Target before my appointment. Then I dragged my a- through the grocery store afterwards. It was a nightmare! I forgot that we were going to get a lot of snow (really not that much IMHO), and people think the world's going to end, so they have to go buy provisions lol. They only had 2 registers open. It was ugly. I'm glad I went yesterday tho because going today would be impossible.

I told Corey when I got home that I was so in so much pain I just couldn't have sympathy for anyone else, and I hijacked the heating pad. I fell asleep on the couch for a about an hour, but woke up to make a dinner. Then it was back to the heating pad.

I fell asleep on the couch last night. I do that A LOT. Corey kept telling me to go to bed. I kept telling him to leave me alone. I finally explained to him that I wasn't in pain, but if I moved an inch, I would be, and that's why I end up falling asleep on the couch so often (before the effects of the MJ wears off). He offered to carry me to bed, which was sweet, but he has a bad back, and that wouldn't go well for either of us. I finally managed to get up, which made him happy.

He brought his tools in yesterday because he plans on putting my desk together today!!! I can't believe it!!! I thought hell would freeze over before he would get around to doing it. And he decided to do it on his own, without me asking/nagging him :):):)

I'm not doing ANYTHING today if I can help it. I'm TOO TIRED, and am in TOO MUCH PAIN.

bizi 03-02-2019 12:32 PM

I hope that you level off and don't tank.
.....
Wow on coreys part! impressive and gets brownie points if he actually follows through with his intentions.
bizi:hug::hug::hug:

mymorgy 03-02-2019 03:48 PM

how sweet and how thoughtful! I hope you can slow down now.

Dmom3005 03-02-2019 03:55 PM

I sure hope Corey gets it done. This is a good start for him.

I'm so hoping this will continue with a change in Corey.

Donna :hug::grouphug:


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