that is so sweet. i forgot if i mentioned a study. one group of people were given money to spend on themselves
and the other was given money to spend on others. spending on others gave them more joy than the other group. neat right?
i worked for the public library as a programmer and was so glad it was non profit. even though it increased my worry and depression i did feel joy when i worked as a psychologist and helped a lot of kids i wanted to give them what i hadn't received my family. I felt worthwhile.
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bobby

Yes, I knew about that study. And the thing is I would have spent
Money on others in either group. Its just the way I am.

I get more out of spending money on others. Just like loaning my
PT cruiser to Kortni so Harmony can go to Preschool this year.

I don't think my husband gets it. But I just want her to get there.
And I always hate it when Kortni doesn't have anything to drive
anyway.

Donna

you are so wonderful!
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bobby

i was depressed late afternoon and then i got a call from aaron. he lifted my mood so much. he is back in wisconsin with his family and wife and having a great time. he said the news is really getting to him and he is going to try not to listen to much to it for a while. same here.
bobby

glad that Aron called!
and that he is not listening to too much news.
We should all take heed to that.
love bizi

i was so depressed during the night. i have been eating a lot of things that are bad for me because i have diabetes and sweets help the depression. i am furious at myself for not trying to exercise to help me walk. my friend david called me yesterday and said to call him if i am depressed. if i could just walk a bit he would go for a short walk with me. marci has been wonderful.
linda called last night with horrible news. her oldest son jonathan was exposed to the virus. he won't know if he caught it from his close friend whom he shares a golf cart with every sat. he has no immune system. he had a pancreis (sp). he just had mouth cancer but his plastic surgeon did a great job and now he can eat. he is 6 2 and weights 120 pounds. he also had a heart attack. linda said he is the kindest guy. linda ran out and got a booster. she is recovering from a double mastectomy...her third time with breast cancer.
i have also been worried about money. i am just freaking out.
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bobby

I am sorry about you taking on others problems and suffering so much. I feel bad for these people in your life who are ill and know that you have an anxiety disorder. This is fodder for your self.Perhaps limit the time that you worry about them set a timer. Perhaps if you write friendship letters then that would cheer them or put a smile on their face. I don't suffer with GAD like you do.
I am sorry you are freaking out.what calms you when you suffer so much.
love, bizi

thank you so much. i took some chamomille tea last night. it didn't help. i don't know what is happening to the world. i can't stop myself from watching the news. this morning i started reading the psalms. i really don't know what to do. everything is so frightening. my friend joyce said just to watch my kitty cats.
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bobby

I think reading, watching and playing with the kitties and maybe finding
a show that is good to watch is the best. I don't watch the news.

Donna

you are so smart not to watch the news. it is so overwhelming.
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bobby