Hi, All,

I'm obsessing about the office.

My ex-colleague tried to take his own life in Oct 07. He came very close to succeeding and is not the same.
He was officially let go from the work in May 08

Somehow I feel a need to keep cleansing the place.
Also I am trying to bring in love and good feeling -- plants, nice pictures, . . .

I put some of his things in my car. I had an idea that I would take them to his boyfriend's house or mail them or something. But I am stuck with them for right now.. . . the ex-roommate/colleageu is getting treatment out of town and the boyfriend is hard to reach. I should dump the stuff. Lots of it I threw out. I have one heavy box and one painting left.

. . . Feeling stuck.

I'm very angry at him. Also sad.

I see tdoc tomorrow/ Friday but I have brought this up with her before and she does not seem interested. Maybe I need to be more clear.

M.