She knows that I have a illness,and she told me on the phone that she is going to have someone else worry about me,and they are going to sell the house that I'm living in when my brother in Law retires. She is not going to help me financially. She doesn't have sympathy for me anymore. She's saying all kinds of damaging things,hateful,to me on the telephone. I think I'm going to fail. Something terrible is happening. I'm very upset.

She's not well. She is doing this on purpose.
1. Stop answering the phone.

2. Then get the Nurse Practitioner to get you some serious meds to help with anxiety now.

3. Next, work on one day at time.
One day at time is all any of use can do. Really.

Leave your sister a lone.
They are not selling the house today. You have a place to sleep tonight. This is a good thing
Sometimes we have to think one day at time. That helps to keep the anxiety / agitation / ocd under control.

Mari



That's all I'm asking from you.
Just give me the strength
To do everyday what I have to do.
Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine.
Lord help me today, show me the way
One day at a time.

They are not selling the house right now,but they will sometime soon. If she gets me upset,and keeps arguing with me,it might be sooner. She had a cold outlook toward Mom,but I didn't think that she would turn on me,and she says it's my fault.

All I know is I'd be talking to her,and then I'd find myself defending myself. I'd try to reason with her,then she'd counter it like she's fencing with me. Then I'd say something,and then she'd attack. She said I'm starting it,but it's her,and she keeps it going. She must hate me to upset me when I'm emotionally upset.

I don't understand it at all. She insinuated a place with public transportation. I'm going to end up loosing my car,and I'm going to loose the things that I've owned during my life. It's horrible how she got me into this discussion,and said all of those things,and got me upset. She was playing on my words,leading me to say something else,and she lead me into insecure subject material. I cannot say anything without her snagging me. This is terrible. I don't know what it is. I was wondering are we both crazy. What is she doing to me. Why is she doing this. Does she do this so she can be right. Whats the point. Now I'm upset,and agitated. BF

I wish I had some good advice for you BF, but I think mari gave you some good advice and I sitting here thinking aren't able to add to it at all. Just wanted to post and let you know I am thinking of you and hoping it gets easier for you soon.

BF,

With the way the house market is now I wouldn't worry about them selling the house soon.

I wish I could say something more to ease your anxiety but I think Mari said it all already

BF

befuddled2

Dear Friend,

I'm sorry that your family is not providing comfort to you. They are making things worse instead of helping you.
I remember too that anxiety and depression can escalate with the torments from family.

You will get through this. Keep telling yourself that you will get through this. Faith can get you through until you get on the perfect medications.

Later, these issues will not seem huge. Believe me.

Mari

I'll try to take it one day at a time. I'm hurting,and chapped by these conversations with my sister. She turned on me at the beginning of the year when she started feeling worse. I don't understand her verbal attacks,and threats. Now she seems to want me gone. I can't believe that this is happening to me. It's like something that you would see on TV. It's been like a domino affect,one thing affecting another,and crash. I've not been doing anything to deserve this treatment. I have been upset,and tormented with these moods,and fears.

I appreciate your concern. I appreciate all of you out there helping me.

I don't know what I'd do without this lifeline. I called social services,and she didn't really help. I was about to call emergency services.

All of my hopes,and every thing that I wanted to be has been stopped by my condition. All of my relationships,have come to a close because of my condition. Now the whole family that I grew up with is turning on me. This is a mystery,dishonor,and grief to me. I know that they are sick,but they are continually mad at me now. I don't believe that I deserve this.

Anyone out there going through troubles that you didn't create,I understand thoroughly,and you do not deserve it. We live in a fallen world. We need to hold on. BF

Dear Friend,
You absolutely do not deserve this treatment.
The treatment has nothing to do with you. It is about them.
It seems that they have been doing this to you pretty much your whole life. That is super yucky.

You will be better without them eventually. It hurts now. It hurts a lot. But peace and love will come out the other side of this. It will.

You have to get on the phone with that Nurse Practitioner and tell her that you need better medications. She or someone in her office can help you better than any one here or in your family.

Call emergency services if you think that that is the best thing. They can evaluate you right away.

And yes, you are absolutely right. We need to hold on.
Keep holding on. We can do that.
Mari

I'm holding on. I'm going to loose my hobby Radios equipment,my Home Theater,my collections of things,my car,and many valuable things that I have paid for over many years. I have put antennas up,and did special things with them,special ground rod configurations,and all of this will be lost. I have self defense hobby type stuff,all will be lost. Coin collections,all will be lost. (Had since I was a teen ager) I have other valuable things,and sentimental things that will be lost. I have radio scanners, special tactical equipment which I Love,special flashlights,night vision devises,and many,many other special things that will all be lost. Things that I really care about will be lost. I deeply regret what I'm hearing from the family. This is bitterly cruel,and not fair. I didn't think that I would be losing everything. It sounds like I am.

It sounds like I'm going into a place of poverty. This is cruel. I lived in a middle upper class suburban life when I was growing up. I cannot take my things with me into a place of poverty. I don't know where I'm headed. I'm going to miss my dear property. These things have helped me to distract my mind from my mind hurting me. I have top notch things that I most certainly don't want to part with. I'm just thinking about this now. I have many interests. I hate what is going on. It's cruel. It's not right. It's too wrong to happen. I didn't expect it.

These things are a part of my technologies,that I've kept up to date. This is all I have. I'm also into photography,and have telescopic lenses. I have DVD collection,CD collections,special radio equipment built in my car. I guess I'm going to have to part with everything,and a family that use to care about me. This is to much going down to quickly. I don't know how I'm going to handle it. This is a big triple wame. I don't have words to express what I'm going to lose. It's too much. BF

I feel so badly for you. All those hobbies reduce stress for you and bring you joy. I wonder if there is a way they will be salvaged. Did you speak to your social worker and ask if it is true?
If you were on the right medication, you possibly could find another no stress job. It sounds as if you have so many talents. The economy is awful I know.
There are programs for low cost housing and section eight where you only have to pay a percentage of your income. You can't work now. But later with the right drugs you might be able to.
I go to a clinic for therapy and I listen to a lot of the clients in the waiting room. Practically all of them aren't working. Most of them are recovering drug addicts. The state has provided them with housing and obviously some spending money besides therapy and medication.
I come from a very toxic and sadistic family. People didn't believe me when I told them what my parents did to me. People couldn't believe how cruel my sister is to me. I am so much better off now that I have nothing to do with my sister Myra and her family. I don't have that conscious pain.