Sent to care for a special life. Since you knew David so well, how do you think he would feel if he could see you now? Do you think he would want you to greve this way? Or for your life to be put on hold?

Perhaps you could find a way to honor him. Maybe you could give to a foundation or help someone else. I already had people give to Hospis Care. (not spelled right). And they already know I plan to help them with pepole that are dying of cancer. I have told them I would donate my time. Then, when I die, if my son isn't alive, all my money goes to them. I have a will made out to see this is carried out.

Linda, they are the ones that were there for me when Bob died. They still come for grief councling. I have raised funds for them and will continue to do so.

Maybe you could figure a way to help David like this. This the way I have chose to reach out and help someone else. The Blessing comes back, I can assure you.
May God Bless You,
Billie
Edit to add: Linda I will be praying you find a way to honor David. I think it will help.