I know how you feel, and if/when you decide to get medical help--and some of it is VERY good--do not under any circumstances let the doctor prescribe Effexor or Effexor XR. It may be a decent antidepressant, but you'll put on weight, and worse, when you get better and decide to get off it, the withdrawal is worse than the reasons you started taking it in the first place. Most doctors don't acknowledge these problems, and either put you back on it or prescribe another drug. I'm desperately trying to get off this poison now--I found this site by looking up info on Magnesium Malate, which someone suggested might help with the withdrawal.

A therapist once told me when I was going through what you're dealing with to "just move the muscles." Her point was, you may not feel much like doing something, so go through the motions, and you'll feel better for having tried and accomplished only a tiny bit. I found that to be very helpful to me.

Bless you and hang in there.