Well, I just went ahead and took the shot tonight since I couldn't get ahold of the neuro to ask what to do and I didn't get home from work until after Shared Solutions had closed. I made myself go out to dinner with a friend and dh and it took my mind off of the whole thing. I was feeling pretty crappy today--really bad headache and nausea and complete brain fog (which I attribute to the drug as my mind was sharp as a tack before I went on it). However I saw my shrink today and she suggested taking some ativan 30 mins before I do the shot. That seemed to take the edge off the heart racing buzzy feeling. And I didn't get the hard to breathe, chest pain thing this time. Went back to the auto-stabber and YIKES!! another massive welt. I think I may stick with manual.

I know I have to try to give it some time to see if my body can adjust. I just don't do well with meds period. It took several years for me to be able to find and tolerate an anti-depressant that worked. I guess I have too sensitive a body. As a result I get massively frustrated! I think the brain fog is freaking me out -- I drove out of the garage the other day, an hour after the shot and feeling spacey, and took the freakin' side mirror right off the car. UGH. I've never done anything like that before. Today while teaching I was having serious difficulties keeping my train of thought.

The frustration may just be my resistance to the idea that MS and the meds are interfering with my life and all my work plans this summer. I'm in the resentful stage right now.

Anyhow, thanks for your supportive thoughts. Cherie you've inspired me to keep going for a little while longer, toughing it out, and hoping my body can adjust.