Dear HannaJane,

Thanks for sharing how you feel. You were given some really good advice. While I am not where you are, I have been and I fight everyday to keep the depression away. Some days are diamonds and well you know some days are rock bottom stones. I am grateful for the advice that was given. Wisdom is in the answers above. Wisdom that I needed to hear. So thanks also to the ones who are kind enough to share their tidbits of inspiring wisdom. I will tell you that I have started new projects to help with the depression and downward spiral. I am learning to sew and crochet and I even put my house work on a schedule. I have those days where nothing gets done. I cant sit to long at the sewing machine and sometimes my fingers don't want to hold the crochet needle. It may take me a week or two to get a simple dress made or even a simple little purse might take three weeks. Find something that you like that you can do even if you have to do it in spurts. It is very hard to rewire the brain to say it is ok if it takes you 8 days instead of 2 to make a or do what ever It is you like to do. 20 some odd years I had to be productive and account for how I used my time, so naturally it is hard to rewire the brain. I hope that you find the light at the end of the tunnel quickly. Take to heart what the previous posters posted some wonderful nuggets of golden advice was given. Soft gentle hugs for you.
I have rambled on long enough.