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05-05-2016, 11:03 AM | #341 | ||
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"Heavenly Father, for the sake of your Son's Sorrowful Passion; Have Mercy on us and on the whole world". Gerry |
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05-08-2016, 01:26 PM | #342 | |||
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that sometimes happens
A happy Mother's Day That is my wish Mine was with sadness Not the wishes I had hoped for I don't understand Heavenly Father And I have done all I can Lift my sadness Jesus Carry me My day with my angel My granddaughter My youngest who left for reason I still do not know But it wasn't warm and comforting I was hurt again But I don't have it in me yet not to pick up the phone It has come to that on Mother's Day for me Hurting Me
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05-12-2016, 07:46 AM | #343 | |||
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Brother Mother Mary Why my post is connected to Gerry's post has to be for a very specific reason Heavenly Father I have been on hold for so very long now Am I not the one all come to ONLY when turd hits the fan I have a very difficult decision to make and follow through I have not turned my back on my family ever I have done for my family With no conditions Here I am now At my weakest My family understands I cannot do certain things for myself anymore no matter how much I try I have do for everyone before I could do for myself Do I need to fall break my bones for them to understand I cannot do certain gosh darn things I need a hair cut so badly forced to let it grow Forced into change Not a word from my daughter Corissa who is in the hospital with a kidney infection Having had unprotected sex now with men and women I don't get it How is sex in the minds of today's children the way to find out if you are gay or not Having sex does not make that determination It is the MIND SPIRIT WHO ONE REALLY IS I have many reasons to worry now My daughters father thinks this is nothing to be concerned about he hasn't called me with information on Corissa I call the program I had her put into when I took her out of school Heavenly Father Can you please take care of my very very sick child It upsets me to no end Her eldest sister my daughter and her husband Turned Corissa on to a joint Nd lit it up to celebrate her birthday Heavenly Father I have many reasons to worry She has a addictive personality And I expressed to the counselor And she will reach out to Corissa She will keep me informed I'm going on and on I don't know if I'm coming or going Two Not one but two of my kids in the hospital How can this be Heavenly Father Scoop me up Don't let me go Help me Help myself I hurt so badly How do I not think about it all Me
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05-14-2016, 05:35 AM | #344 | |||
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Brother Mother Mary Let me not complain about my sadness I cannot get this horrible feeling out of my being It hurts so badly So badly I have nobody to turn to that can console me Please Heavenly Father Make it all go away Don't let it eat at me I don't want to go on It doesn't feel like it will be much better Not for this lady Not happened in a long time A long time My father committed suicide Why Why did he do that
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05-15-2016, 07:06 AM | #345 | |||
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Brother Mother Mary Blessings I receive I thank you for It is hard to think that even in this very hard time I cannot make it The loneliness is something I am not used to Is this You telling me to be still Have You taken over the wheel Have You felt my pain Did You come to lift it Alone I am My children I do not understand My eldest and I arguing over the situation with her sister my youngest She is not okay Sickle cell trait Kidney problems as a infant right side 1/2 removed Second sugery removing what was called the mega stump as she still had problems Now a 99.999% chance my children have it My son I just found out through my eldest yesterday He is NOT taking his meds for his bi-polar disease I beleive a direct result of the mutation He still yet to be tested My eldest will have the epilectologist test her after a huge fight of the importance of being tested She finally submitted to the idea of being tested Releaved yes Yes if course Heavenly Father My third child on a road the just goes in circles She is not interested in getting a proper job What is a proper job Anything that would not allow her to get high Heavenly Father I cannot do this alone Of You I spoke of To my eldest She talks about me being prideful I express I have You how brought me this far I hope not to fail As I cussed You yesterday Forgive me Help me I was dead Dead I just want to die that I do not want this pain anymore My dear sister who is not a mother however in my children's lives She was the one to take them to the carnival action park Great adventure The shore The movies You name it she did it with them They went without wanting We I as their mom made sure they were involved in school activities holding excellant grades It is a travesty what the father of my children did when we split Young I was with my babies alone Nobody knew for three months Nobody Not even the owners of the building Mr and Mrs Tambone Long time passed We're in love with me and my babies And life alone with my babies Having to return to a full time job So I could get the help promised by my mother Come take the apartment Knowing I would take care of everything OCD a wonderful thing for her My rewards since I could remember Love = taking care of the family and order in the home I was constantly cleaning something Organizing something Or the projects I did for my parents No child should have to work for love My sisters I protected from my father Or so I thought I was Where is my God as a young mother Pride No Experience Yes Educated in uncharted waters Yes Pride No No Not the kind person I would want in my life Today's world is loosing touch with the simple things in life How much change in just my children's generations Keeping You close to me throughout my lifetime Who is always there ready for me Allow me to humble myself Forgive my shortcomings Stay strong in my head Do not let my mind roam into the thoughts of any sadness or fear I have reason to worry You are my Savior My everything I did not get to where I am alone You carried me when I couldn't walk You are real Your promised real Your Son real My heart real My mind yours My soul yours Do with me as You would like Heavenly Father Lift my sorrow over my children I do not understand I do not know why I have always known better You instilled that in me To all those who claim to be my friends This I do not have The ability to trust As when I try The rug gets pulled from under me I am aware of my blessing The songbird sings instinctively the beautiful tune one belts out The trees with the leaves to the tip top of them sway and talk to one another as they sway in harmony I am not a failure I am not a mistake I am not a doormat I am not without God I do have confidence Not arrogance My loving sister is food shopping for me Bless her day with your loving touch Give her what I would love her to have Your touch In Jesus I trust I God I believe Love Me
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05-19-2016, 07:11 AM | #346 | |||
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Brother Mother Mary Thank you for the blessings you give In this sad time I my life I have The Lord to run to In this trying time I have The Lord to walk to In this painful state I have The Lord to crawl to In my love of the thought this family heal I have The Lord to turn to In my tearful state every morning every night I have The Lord to lift me up In my fear I have The Lord to hold me tight In my desire to find love to experience love to wonder of love I have The Lord to hear my prayers To have that someone to hold me and say "everything will be okay" I have The Lord to fill in while I be gifted by The Father as he sees fit I have The Lord I was promised freedom through him I have Jesus Christ to guide me And The Father bestow blessings as he sees fit Heavenly Father Bless this life we are given The moment we took our first breath And it to be taken by You When You call us Home It is a promise I believe Love one another Love Me
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"Thanks for this!" says: | Mark56 (05-21-2016) |
05-21-2016, 10:24 AM | #347 | |||
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Yes Eva
You have He who can heal all ills Run to His open arms Of grace Of love Of joy Of peace For it is only in His divine embrace Life, with all of its hardship Can be endured You And your family Have endured much I pray you be showered with infinite blessings Drenching your soul In love M56 |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (05-21-2016), ger715 (05-28-2016) |
05-25-2016, 10:58 AM | #348 | |||
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Brother Mother Mary To thank You for blessings bestowed I am killing myself The sadness is so cold The house so empty I have no strength My back hurst so badly To the touch Just the air alone It hurts so badly Fill my heart with You I pray You help guide me I pray You hear me I pray You will protect me I pray for it to stop I pray You heal me I pray to laugh I pray for no more sadness It is killing me You know all Heavenly Father Heal me Please Come to me Help me help myself I am left alone Because I have been let down by all who say they care Now when sick Nobody is around Nobody to take of me when I need help Even in the hardest times Eva is getting older Ready to start school in September Who will step up I have made the arrangements for her to be registered in the town I moved from 46 years All new schools built All new technology I cannot stop the tears It is everyday Throughout the day Anybody who goes through this Is NOT well And I must fight the fight It is so hard So hard Pain has a hold on me All kinds Not just one So done So want to just melt away Like an ice cube No flavor No color You can't see it When it melts and dries up Me
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05-25-2016, 10:35 PM | #349 | |||
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The depth Of your pain Of those hurts Of the disappointments Clearly nears a crest which might overwhelm Yet There are those, like Ger and others, yes me And we pray that you not feel alone That you not be alone But that there be shoulders which come alongside And help you to heft the weight of sorrows You should be blessed to help with all needs For this I pray M56 |
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05-27-2016, 12:30 PM | #350 | |||
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Thank You Heavenly Father for the blessings right in front of me Cloth me with You Allow me to get stronger I am needed I will hope to be with my youngest In the next two days It is here I get unconditional blessings Persons who have been with me from the beginning A good few years now So much has happened since then Looking for information of my disease I have come to meet such beautiful persons such as yourself And dear Gerry To know true serenity Is turning it ALL over That I do not have any control over anything Just what I have to offer I talk with Heavenly Father all the time I have learned much of about myself Not being a part of society How the disable are treated Even by our own family I seems I need to bleed for them to get it The bruises on my hands and feet aren't enough I have always taken care of myself It is getting harder and harder They are not in my private world But to have my feet rubbed Who wouldn't welcome that To have my back rubbed Who wouldn't love that To have my hair brushed Who wouldn't want that To have a hug and it be felt Warm and not hurt To be kissed on my head Just because To be liked Because I am real Heavenly Father I am a sinner In Jesus Christ I trust In You I believe Cloth me in You I am not feeling well I want to handle myself So I may be available for them And now I need them It stinks I don't like what is playing in my head I know what I feel I am scared of the pain I don't want it to hurt I have hurt to hard too long For others I give myself to You Heavenly Father Know my heart Hold it in Your hands Love you all for the support You all feed me the Faith I must have In the Father With much love Me
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